#*fingerguns*

A song about coming to terms with my chronic illness. I wrote it last winter during a period where I could barely move and was felt like I had lost huge parts of myself. Sometimes all you can do is exist, but that's enough. (Recorded on my phone, so sorry about the lackluster audio!)

Here (To The Witch Who Cursed Me)

Was this a curse of dark despair Your witch-knots tangled in my hair That whisper all my losses in their strange sad litany? That slow my voice, that dull my mind, Oh did you think that they’d unwind The threads of who I am until there’s nothing left of me?

Well there are birds outside my window, There is breath within my lungs, There is wonder to be conjured from this trail of winding crumbs.

Cause I am here and I am here and I am here And I am here and I am here and I am here And I am here and I am here and I am here And I am.

Was this a curse of loneliness This weight you planted in my chest That binds me to this ruined tower with neither door nor key? You struck my body half-asleep And left me here to sit and weep Until I cracked with longing for the world that used to be.

Well there are pilgrims who will find me, Who will scale these crumbling stones, So I trust to legs and minds and hands and voices not my own.

There is no quest can save me, though I know that they would try There are curses we cannot dispel and knots we can’t untie So I’ll live and let them love me; we will write a kinder tale Whatever doom you dreamed for me, I hope you know you failed.

Cause I am here and I am here and I am here And I am here and I am here and I am here And I am here and I am here and I am here And I am.

There are friends to take my side in all the battles I can’t win And we’ll pluck out threads of gold from all the straw that I can’t spin There are wildflowers blooming in the garden I can’t tend And you may have changed my story, but this life is not the end.

Rating: Teen and Up Fandom: Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Words: 3,269 Characters: Aizawa Shouta, All For One/Zen Shigaraki Tags: Blood and Injury, Coercion, Manipulation, Human Experimentation (mentioned and implied but not explicit), Villain Aizawa Shouta, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence Series: Part of Necrosis, a vigilante-villain aizawa au.

Summary:

Aizawa Shouta finds himself unexpectedly kidnapped and he has no interest in complying with his captor's demands. They're not planning to give him much choice in the matter though.

I say we just be unapologetically ourselves. Goof off but in a respectful way (in the way of not putting down anyone else or anything that would be considered Very Serious).

(Lil'. Lil' rant under the cut. Because this is something I encounter and dearly hate.)

I think that... we know Eddie's capable of being jealous. He outright tells Steve he's super jealous. but it's not about the listed things. He says he's jealous before all that. He's jealous of ONE thing: Dustin's love. Dustin's good opinion, which Steve actually has in scads, and Eddie's acutely aware of it- says as much, when he tells Steve Dustin talks about him to Eddie.

And the REASON he's jealous that Steve has Dustin's love is... because Eddie doesn't think Steve is a good person. Or didn't. He had the image of Steve in his mind that he's got rich parents, he's super popular, chicks love him.... all of which, to Eddie, reads as 'this person is a douche.' Has to be, because NO ONE Eddie has experienced that has those things has ever been good to him. His personal experiences, INCLUDING with Steve at least through observation, have been the opposite of good.

So what Eddie is jealous of isn't that Steve is those things and Eddie isn't. It's that he thought Steve was bad AND somehow still managed to get Dustin's love. When you're bad, you don't get the love of good people, right? Isn't that how the world works? It's probably how Eddie's been told the world works. He's got enough wounds that say that's how the world is supposed to work. So how can Steve, a bad person (as far as he knows), have earned the love of the kid Eddie's been trying to impress all year, whom Eddie considers to be a good person?

Happy Bi Visibility Day!

Made some bi flag color gradient clay and turned it into little ghost earrings, for people who need to convey they are both bisexual and haunted.