date: january 2023
word count: 451 words.
summary: mirae records for the white wind mini-album.
notes:
days have been starting before the sun rises and ending long after itās gone down for mirae lately, but she wouldnāt have it any other way. filming is exhilarating; it feels like something great is in the works. she gets to spend time in the studio, too, for her own music most recently, but sessions for seleneās next album have kicked in, too. so many of the idols she keeps in touch with from seleneās debut days have moved on, their groups have disbanded officially or all but in name, and theyāre acting for lack of an idol career or theyāve gone solo and rarely talk to their former members or theyāve settled down into a life less in the spotlight.
by many accounts, selene should have aged out of the idol spotlight by now. thereās something of an expectation that girl groups arenāt meant to be active into their thirties, that theyāll take on a role considered more dignified. but selene isnāt her stepping stone; itās her foundation.
and thatās why she feels no annoyance entering the studio after a long day of shooting. fatigue lingers at the edges of her consciousness and on the surface of her muscles, but itās kept at bay by the commitment sheās made and plans to continue making.
when she slides the headphones over her head and flips through the papers of lyrics in front of her, itās returning to a comfort zone sheās knowingly pushed herself outside of more in the past year or two. and as much as sheāll laud the progress thatās made in trying something new, thereās no denying the calm confidence that comes with familiarity.
āthis is really the fourth mini-album in a year. anyone who didnāt know would think youāre rookies,ā comes the voice from the other side of the glass fronting the recording booth.
āin forty years when weāre releasing our fiftieth mini-album, this will practically be our rookies days,ā mirae counters with a broad grin. forty years is too far off, she knows. the human body isnāt meant for dancing so often for so long, and even if seleneās choreographies arenāt known for being the hardest in the industry, she canāt imagine her seventy year-old knees will take well to them.
selene are seniors within the landscape of active groups, but if their four seasons, four colors project has proved anything, itās that their seniority has only made them more capable.
and, so, with a long day behind her and another one in front of her in the morning, she uses her experience to cast exhaustion aside and dedicate it all to the closing chapter of another book in the library of their careers. her chapter.
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she gathers enough information before the meeting to know what to expect. itād started as being brought up to her as a meeting on a performance opportunity the company would like to have her taken advantage of, but enough nagging of her manager and he relents and tells itās for some concert series that will be held at the culture complex once it opens.
she only has one song out, and only one more will come before the end of the year. she doesnāt have enough for a mini-set at a festival, so the fact that theyāre considering her at all leaves two options for what the concerts might consist of. either theyāre a series of small, festival-like stages with a list of performers to go on for each, or theyāll want her to do something else to film the time. entertain in fanmeeting-fashion or do covers.
whatever it is exactly, sheās though through her different options and come up with her answers and conditions for each. the answer part is easy enough. yes. she wants to get on a stage on her own some place that isnāt a music show and get the experience under her belt some of those younger than her do in spades already because theyād gone all in on the solo music while sheād been building up her resume of acting and modeling gigs.
an email is forward to her with more information a couple of days before the meeting and her suspicions are confirmed. mini-concerts, sheāll have to do a few covers if sheās to perform to pad out the set list to the minimum time theyāve set to justify a ticket price. she crafts a list of possible covers on her phone while sheās at the salon that day. boyfriend is an obvious one, since itād been well received by her fans when itād gone up on the base youtube account earlier in the year. copycat comes up early on the list as well. she already has it prepared from her youtube, but her fans havenāt seen it in person yet.
she wants to perform something no oneās seen yet as well and she adds and then removes ideas from the list for a while until she narrows her options down to a few hits from the idol soloists sheād grown up seeing on television. from there, itās a matter of deciding what side she wants to show. nothing too simperingly sexy, but it has to fit the mood of the rest of the set list as well.
10 minutes becomes the final contender and she saves the list in her notes to write down or print out later.Ā
never let gold star say she didnāt come into their meetings prepared.
date: november 6, 2022.
word count: 487 words.
summary: mirae considers her past the day of her solo mini-concert.
notes: -
stage fright has never been a thing for mirae. the fluttering in her stomach and the electricity shooting up her arms before she goes on stages has always read to her as excitement, not fear or anxiety.
maybe it has something to do with how young sheād been the first time sheād stepped foot on a stage in front of a crowd of peopleĀ ā or rather, how young sheād been when sheād first stepped foot into the corner of a rundown bar to sit next to her dad as he played a song for a scattering of unenthusiastic patrons.
now she knows her purpose had been to earn a few extra tips (or a few tips at all) out of the mere appeal of the cuteness of a five year-old girl, but at the time, sheād made herself a star in her own mind.
at the end of the night, whatever measly offerings theyād gotten would be split between her dad and his bandmates. they had a deal to rotate who got the largest portion when the total couldnāt be split evenly, something that happened more often than not, but in retrospect, she thinks her dad got the benefit more often than the others. her cuteness must have worked on them, too.
back then, she hadnāt understood that when she begged him to use his tips on the way home to buy odeng or tteokbokki on the way home, her greed had been getting the best of her.
she looks back on it now and wishes she could scold the little girl who hadnāt fully grasped the reason her parents sometimes didnāt join their children to eat a meal or why they visited the seven thousand won buffet that let them sneak home leftovers so often even after she got bored of their dull food.
when she talks to her dad now, he never brings up her young greed. instead, he congratulates her on her mini-concert when she calls him to check in that morning. she canāt talk for long; sheās on the way to the salon when they talk, but she knows she wonāt hear from her mom and she doubts her brother or sister remember, so she savors what she can get.
itās not a full-blown concert. there are no fancy stage effects since so many concerts are crammed into such a short time, and she only has two songs of her own out anyway, but itās her first solo concert after twelve years and it feels like a crown in its own way, even if many who have been around a much shorter time are also holding their own mini-concert for the series.
though the set is less than twenty minutes, sheās been in the studio practicing like itās a two hour show.Ā
that much she can proudly say about herself. these days, her greed never exists without twice the effort behind it.Ā
date: early november
word count: 473 words.
summary: mirae considers what her next career step is.
notes: -
seleneās debut had been explosive. everyone has tuned in to see what bang sunyoung had created and theyād like it enough to hold the newly revealed act steady at the top of the charts. theyād been granted music show wins in record-breaking speed and the rare gift of hurdling over rookie of the year awards straight to a daesang for song of the year.
success isnāt foreign to mirae, even if sheās been told she works like it is. from some perspectives, success had been handed to her on a silver platter and, as such, unaffected aloofness is expected from her. some still perceive her to have such a quality on mere expectation alone.
for all sheās painted in strokes of effortlessly confident, enviableĀ ācool girlā, un-wanting to try is one thing she isnāt.
sheās starkly aware of how critical the current moment in her life is. sheās watched squid gameās achievements almost religiously. thereās alerts set on her phone for any big news that comes out under squid gameās topic and sheās been playing the social media game so as not to waste the influx of millions of new followers to her instagram. if the spotlight from squid game alone werenāt enough, gashina has only made it that much brighter domestically.
itās a new type of pressure sheās never really felt before from any of her individual acting endeavors or modeling, that itās on her whether she flies or falls from here. thereās been meeting after meeting with management and a&r about what the next steps are and theyāve only grown in number since the mid-september drop of squid game. with her next drama postponed, itās been script after script sent her wayĀ ā more than ever before now that the chance of casting her means the hope of some of squid gameās attention rubbing off on her next project ā and auditions that for the most part havenāt felt like the next right step. a&r makes a point of how global music can go. itās easier to capitalize on the global music market and build her profile from there, they claim. gashinaās well-loved by global k-pop fans, so if they aim for a more general public with an english-language single, she has a lot of potential. in the meetings, she nods in silent agreement, but calculates in her head how to be seen as a multi-hyphenate instead of a one-hit wonder.
sheād once worried about being cornered into the label of only being an actor, but now there are forces in all directions saying which next step is the best, and none of the opinions seem to overlap well enough to blend them together into some masterful chess move of her own.
the clock is ticking on her chance and a decision has to be made before making one becomes pointless.
date: october 9, 2022
word count: 414 words.
summary: gold star media calls a little meeting and mirae isnāt happy.
notes: donāt read please this is so bad
thereās only a few reasons for gold star media to call every artist, actor, and model under the company into a meeting on such short notice. mirae runs through the list in her head on the way to the building: bang sunyoungās gravely ill or just got bored of this particular part of her media empire and has decided to step down suddenly, one of their idols has finally fucked up so terribly itās bringing the whole company down, or theyāre being bought out by some massive corporation in an industry that just makes that much more than entertainment does.
the talk from right before new yearās has mostly faded into the background of her mind, so it doesnāt even occur to her it might be about that until it very clearly is.
thereās a unique mix of annoyance and bubbling anxiety she walks out of the room with when the meeting comes to an uncomfortable close. they may not have said anything, but mirae has little doubt the talk theyāve been warned of will be true, at least in part. if someone had it out for gold star, faked tax evasion would be too easily cleared to be a good method of dirtying their name.
itās not news to her that the rich are greedy to keep ahold of their money. sheās known it since childhood and, in her adulthood, sheās brushed shoulders with more than a few people sheās sure loved what their financial power could let them get away with to retain that power. sheās even dated one or two, so thereās no claim she can make of doe-eyed naivety, but that doesnāt make it any better a look when people find out.
her company is supposed to be the last thing sheās worried about throwing a wrench into a good publicity run, and with squid game growing more popular by the day, sheās supposed to be in the spotlight for her work, not for the dirty dealings of a company sheās stood by every day for over a decade.
her manager must see the look on her face as she slides into the passenger seat of the van to return to her normal schedule because she gives her a look of trepidation from the driverās seat. she doesnāt bother to school her face into something more neutral. being pissed off in a situation like this is hardly a crime. and even if it was, that would only make her even.
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date: mid-october 2022
word count:Ā 470 words.
summary: idk iām too tired to summarize
notes: not proofread tbh
mirae considers herself to be meticulously on top of things. she studies new schedules that are passed her way like sheāll be tested on them and she makes sure sheās respectfully early to any event thatās on them, be it a studio session or a drama shoot. she doesnāt really let anything catch her off-guard, so when a meeting with a&r is added last-minute to her schedule and her manager says he knows itās about a new music release, he doesnāt know anything else, she canāt help but be equal parts curious and aggravated by the lack of information she has.
she canāt imagine itās anything negative. squid game is doing leagues better than even she could have predicted with her confidence in the project, and saebyeok has amassed popularity of her own already. miraeās instagram followers have risen a staggering amount and that may not be everything, but it sure meant a lot when it came to brand offers coming her way and the fee she could charge for them. she can only see the meeting being good news for her, and yet she prepares herself for the worst as well so she wonāt be caught off guard.
when she enters the meeting room at gold star, sheās met with a woman she canāt remember having ever crossed paths with before. she must be a new hire, mirae figures, but grows suspicious that she hasnāt been set up with the same a&r reps she worked with on bloom and gashina.
the reason quickly becomes apparent when the woman introduces herself as one of gold starās global promotion liaisons. from there, it doesnāt take much work to come to the conclusion that gold star has seen the attention sheās getting and wants to hold onto it in more than just the acting field.
the woman explains just that.
āggashina just came out, but we want to look forward to new opportunities that have opened up for you. gold star has been fielding completely english demos mostly for our younger groups since selene has such strong groundwork laid in korea, but thereās potential and demand for you right now with squid game doing so well abroad and your profile rising.ā
she continues to tell mirae theyāve already collected a few demos for her to listen to, and that they want to do something blending what sheās already shown and repackage it for an english-speaking audience. the information comes with a slideshow of formulated concept ideas and plans, and mirae notes mentally that sheād never had this quick of turnaround for her projects before.
instead of letting any resentment fester about that, she agrees as quickly as the idea is presented. investment presented without having to ask for it isnāt something sheāll take for granted.
date: early november 2022
word count:Ā 519 words.
summary: mirae films a youtube video to promote base culture complex.
notes: performance / choreography reference.Ā slight tweaks in that the ice animation at the beginning of the video plays on the movie theater screen behind her throughout the performance and she dances in front of the screen / in the aisle between seat sections.
when a manager suggests she might be a good candidate to do some promo for the academy portion of the brand new culture complex, mirae is forced to face the fact that she might not have gotten into gold star if she was a young girl auditioning today. gold star has established itself as a powerhouse instead of merely a promising venture by one of south koreaās most loved women since then, yes, but the barriers to becoming a trainee have only grown in number since the days sheād been accepting into the company.
base academy is good in theory. she canāt fault allowing passionate young people to learn and grow their passion for performance, but it isnāt that simple. an academy requires a pass, and a pass requires getting through pesky gates like money and connections. sheād never trained at an academy, much less one sheās sure has exorbitantly high fees for its direct pathway to three coveted companies. thereās no way she could have paid for it. not with her parentsā meager savings or the even more meager earnings she got from being a fitting model after her agency took more than half in the name of training her up to be a professional on a runway.
moves like this make for an industry even more flooded with bored rich kids than it already is.
her reflections arenāt enough for her to turn down a paid position hosting a workshop at the very academy, but they are enough for her to counter with an offer to film something in the movie theater instead. it will be original for her to dance anywhere other than a dance studio, anyway.
the idea is mostly her own, with some help from her trusted choreographer who also comes up with a piece for her on short notice that works around the space limitation of the chosen location.Ā
after an evening spent at the salon to get extensions put in and her nails painted red to match her boots, mirae heads to the culture complex with her team after dark. when there arenāt people packed wall-to-wall for a party, itās more obvious how needlessly big everything is.Ā
itās another hour before everything is set up for the shoot, and mirae is ushered away from her position in the hallway outside the theater, chatting to her choreographer, who sheād brought along for any last minute adjustments needed for the cameras to get the right shots.Ā
filling the space without knocking into anything is harder than sheād anticipated when sheād only had taped lines on the floor in the practice room to simulate how much room sheād have to dance. she bumps her ankle on the bottom of a chair more than once before a break is called and she brings her choreographer in to re-work some of the problem spots.
it takes more takes than mirae is proud to admit before the she gets confirmation that theyāve gotten a workable take on every angle they want, but she has hope that the final product will be seamless for all the effort put in.