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the basics

name: rhiannon indigo falla age: twenty-one birthday & zodiac: february 27th pisces sun. libra moon. sagittarius rising. pisces mercury. pisces venus. aries mars. gender: cisgender woman sexuality: bisexual positive traits: easygoing, affectionate, passionate negative traits: impressionable, selfish, over-bearing

the surface

faceclaim: kristine froseth. height: 5′9 ft. weight: 120 lbs. eye color: sky blue. hair color: naturally light brown, dyed platinum blonde. lower back length and unkempt. almost always kept down, however she's begun incorporating high ponytails and messy, claw-clip styles as of late. style: ridiculously short crop tops. oversized hoodies & sweatshirts. ripped stockings and fishnets. fitted cardigans. flowy dresses and mini, MINI skirts. shoes ranging from mules to wedges to doc martens. think grunge, whimsical fairy girl w/ maximalist styling and pattern clashes. sequins, frills, slits, anything gaudy and tacky. lots of bright red. white, blacks, greys. natural spring colored for her more dainty pieces. blush pink, cream, baby blue. distinguishing features: dreamy eyes, faint horizontal cheekbone scar, lotsa tattoos, messy & unruly hair. soft, lullaby-like voice. occupation: student. escort. status: single and lonely asf. trope: THE CLOUDCUCKOOLANDER

Well-intentioned but inexperienced, Rhia struggles to actualize her ideology of unconditional love in a practical manner. She has a simplistic, rose-tinted view of the world and her role in it. She struggles to compromise on what she believes, even though her moral compass is undeniably faulty. In many cases, Rhia chooses willful ignorance over acceptance of her very real, incredibly shitty circumstances.

She describes herself as an agent of fate, an embodiment of life acting itself out - the perfect excuse to avoid accountability for her actions. Therefore, she has several tendencies toward selfish acts and conflict avoidance. If Rhia commits a wrongdoing, she is more than likely to refuse to acknowledge what she did rather than admit she holds a capacity to harm other people. This would defile the image of goodness she clings to in her inner world.

These aren’t acts of malice, but rather symptoms of her fear of vulnerability. Rhia is too preoccupied with fitting into how she wants others to perceive her, oftentimes suppressing her worries with playful banter and random anecdotes. She’s a master of the secrets of social deception, molding herself into the physical embodiment of her counterpart’s perfect person.

She struggles being present in the moment because of the constant anxiety that her words and actions might break the illusion of her projected, dreamlike version of the world. Too ashamed to voice any of these observations, Rhia internalizes them and forces it into fuel for her art. Ultimately, her whimsical demeanor conceals her critical overthinking, haunted by nuanced social etiquette and the unspoken.

This chameleon-like obsession of hers largely inhibits Rhia to develop her self identity, rather resting on the opinions of others for her emotional wellness. She presents herself as an abstraction, a delightful performance of beauty and lust. Over the years, she’s come to learn people desire the sugary lies she feeds them as just much as she does.

SECONDARY TROPES: the idealist, the naïve everygirl, the dumb blonde, uptown girl, the love freak, the pollyanna, the true pacifist, the stupid good, the fool, the bratty teenage daughter, the manic pixie dream girl, the brainless beauty, the hooker with a heart of gold, the cute clumsy girl, the rebellious spirit, the ethical slut, the girl in the tower.

CHARACTER INSPIRATION: cassie ainsworth (skins uk). cady heron (mean girls). misty day (american horror story). oa (the oa). alaska young (looking for alaska). jesse (neon demons). nina sayers (black swan). luna lovegood (harry potter). yvaine (stardust). alice (alice in wonderland). carrie white (carrie). cassie howard (euphoria). nana "hachiko" komatsu (nana). alex laterno (8 mile). misa amane (death note). jenny humphrey (gossip girl). margarey tyrell (game of thrones). priscila elvis (priscilia). tohru honda (fruits basket).

the depths

personality: cheerful, excitable, giving, worrisome, manipulative, ditzy, needy, fickle, flighty, elusive, insincere, pushy, moody, loving, romantic, dreamy, inspired, dishonest, irresponsible, reckless, bubbly, self-absorbed, insecure

choosing to live amongst the clouds, rhiannon coasts on her natural charisma and easygoing nature. she is a fun-loving, thrill-seeking type  that strongly values her independence. she is morally motivated, although her beliefs are considered quite radical, and she is quick to fall back on her virtue if met with resistance.  rhiannon is an active pacifist, practicing vegetarian, and meditation guru. when it comes to what she’s  interested in, she may become obsessive and overly idealistic.

she is self-critical and overly concerned with perfection, though consistency and follow through has never been her strong suit. rhia is prone to quitting, running away, or separating herself from any given obstacle that causes her discomfort. she suffers from issues with codependency, often tying her self worth too  heavily into the opinions of those she values. no doubt, she suffers from an internalized inferiority complex, one that she doesn’t readily make noticeable but ultimately motivates  most of her actions.

rhiannon has passion and a magnanimous vision for her projects, but she lacks the discipline and  confidence to follow through with her plans. often times, she deflects from her struggles with self-loathing and body image. she is ambitious yet unmotivated, a lethal combo for such a fragile soul.

regardless of what she leads others to believe, much of what rhia presents is inauthentic, hiding imperfect sides of herself to appeal to whomever she is attempting to impress. rhiannon is secretive, never forthcoming with her desires or her intentions, though she has a tendency to be overly trusting in untrustworthy individuals.

her public persona is a face tailored to meet the wants of each person she encounters. rhia is more keen than she may let on, strategically weaponizing her ditzy nature for social power. she is self-centered and indulgent, though she would never dare admit so, nor allow for herself to be viewed in such a light.

mbti: enfp extraverted. intuitive. feeling. perceiving. alignment: chaotic good hogwarts house: hufflepuff hobbies: playing instruments including, but not limited to: piano, guitar, bass, violin, ukulele. gardening, yoga/meditation, writing, dance, tarot, modelling.

history:

To most Rhia comes off as an open book, even overly honest about her private life. for someone who spends most of her time over sharing, not much is publicly known about the intricacies of her home life. Not many would recognize her insatiable rambling as the deflective tactic it was, and the general assumption seems to be she grew up with a nuclear family, a stern mother and a loving father. Although, her peers easily identify her as an only child, as her whiny, spoiled nature speaks for itself.

She was born in Norway, at the hospital her grandmother gave birth to her mother. It was a difficult birth and an even more difficult subsequent period of Acacia feigning at motherly duties she quickly discovered she wanted no part in. Whereas the newly born Rhiannon proved to be the bane of her mother’s existence, her father lamented his shortcomings as a provider.

Christopher is nurturing and gentle, softspoken even as others stripped him of his good faith. He is an earnest man but weak. He was not taught to stick up for himself, rather he learned it was best to keep his head down and turn the other cheek if need be. He’d gotten himself a cushy job, a big house, and a seemingly doting wife. Yet, her love was quick to dry, replaced instead with an icy stare and chilling words if he fell short of her expectations.

It was easy for him to submit to Acacia’s will, replacing the authoritarian attitude of his father with her narcissistic tendencies. He took no leadership in his parental role, justifying his inaction with affection and flattery for his young daughter. She was well-loved, provided for, and gifted; yet he could not explain away the ire his wife held for their daughter.

Several months later, the family returned to their isolated home. Rhia was a sensitive child, bursting out in tears regardless of how many times her mother scolded her. Her father continued in his complacency toward Acacia’s emotional abuse. As young as eight years old, her mother proposed a strict meal regiment to minimize Rhia’s excelling growth in baby fat. For your ballet form... She insisted, and Rhia knew only how to listen.

As she grew older, her mother’s controlling habits continued to rear its head and dominate every aspect of Rhia’s life. Her mother dressed her well into her early teens, but eventually she’d hidden a growing collection of her own choosings in an empty picnic basket she kept atop her closet.

Her father grew older and sicker, though his long hours in the classroom stayed the same. They grew estranged, due to time apart and Rhia’s realization her father would never protect her from her mother. After years of idly playing the role of a good, obedient daughter, the first sign of real temptation charmed her into giving up any lingering desire to appease her parents.

Her temptation came in the form of a long-haired pretty boy who was much too old and much too vain to be an appropriate first love for Rhia. Though, she fell head over heels for him all the same. Upon their first encounter, she demanded a spot in his smoking circle, failing to mention it was her first experience. He would continue to be the first of many for her, and Rhia eagerly followed Caleb further each exploratory boundary he pushed her through.

Her mother caught on to her nightlife after several months of staking out and investigating her daughter’s changing behavior. Acacia suspected Rhia was sneaking out of the house long before she actually started, but she reveled in exposing Rhia’s behavior. The consequences were non-negotiable; Acacia was devout and her daughter’s relationship with Caleb involved several many sins.

(tw: domestic violence) She was forced to leave at the hand of her mother’s harassment. While her mother occasionally raised a hand to her before, Rhia was stripped and bruised and humiliated. Her father wept helplessly as the two argued, though Rhia never lifted a finger to defend herself. She packed a duffel bag full of what she deemed essential, and Acacia booted her out of the door, yelling slurs and threatening her only child if she ever returned home.

Freshly sixteen and already defeated, Rhiannon moved into the small house her boyfriend shared with three other roommates. They were smelly, vulgar, and disrespectful, but Caleb fraternized with them so Rhia laughed along. He’d quickly become her entire world, Rhia living and breathing to satisfy every want he had. She would do anything to earn his love, though it was a losing game as Caleb hardly took their relationship serious.

It was his guilt about playing a hand in the destruction of Rhia’s home life that kept them together. He only ever offered up his home to her because he felt bad, especially when she was too nice to him for her own good. So, he sucked it up for a year and a half, giving Rhia the decency of hooking up with people behind her back while allowing her to kiss his ass the entire time.

Soon enough, his interest in someone else peaked, and Caleb finally put an end to the toxic whirlwind of their relationship. She was devastated but forced to take the little savings she’d kept from her experimental work and sublet a room for the rest of her time in high school.

She wasn’t ready to be financially independent, and her life struggling to make ends meet nearly drove her to her wit’s end. Rhia lost all semblance of love and felt no companionship from those around her. She existed as a ghost, draining herself into her part-time job to pay for her shitty, run-down apartment. 

Her lifeline during this time became her sex work, Rhia stayed afloat by putting a price on her presence and charming men to hand over their wallets. Oddly, it was a position of power she grew to crave. She grew to romanticize her own exploitation, transmuting her learned sexual energy into confidence and magnetism. She grew to adore the idolization, healthy sproutlings emerging from the seeds of her father’s love and her stage performance.  

She hadn’t expected her career choice to catch up with her, though it was only a matter of time before word got around at Ogden about Rhia being seen accompanying (and perhaps fondling) a man over twice her age. She has since then recovered from the crippling period of self hatred that followed the stirring gossip, though she never managed to admit to the allegations.

(tw: chronic illness) Unexpectedly, her mother contacted her shortly after the beginning of her sophomore year when her father’s health took a turn for the worse. Through a stiff lip, Acacia practically told the daughter she hadn’t seen in three years she owed it to her to nurse Christopher back to health. Old habits die hard, and reluctantly Rhia packed up her life at Ogden to return home, like a lamb to the slaughter.

In truth, she hadn’t expected her mother to release her clutches as her father’s body slowly healed. He spent several weeks completely incapacitated, in constant pain from his joint inflammation. So, Rhia pleaded with her father instead, telling him of all the tales of her time at school and milking the fondness he held for her. At the promise that she maintain contact with her parents from now on, they didn’t fight her second flight from home.

She'd only been back a few months before she was abruptly pulled out of school, yet again disappearing without so much as a word. Only a few weeks later did she manage to reach out to inform her close friends she was okay. However, she refused to disclose anything about her whereabouts. And after a short reassurance about her safety, she was gone again for months.

To visit her family back in Maine... at least, that's what she's decided to say for now.

Undeniably, she's come back... different. Quieter, more somber, even paranoid. Whereas she shone brightly once like the sun, a hazy fog seemingly follows her every move on campus. Rhia has kept her head down for the most part, going to class as normal and avoiding trouble. Yet, the same question has arisen time and time again following her return... what happened over summer?

the connections

relationship to greer: greer’s project.

Was she to blame for her eagerness to bask in the warmth of Greer’s light? Since she’d stepped on campus, Rhia fell under the golden girl’s spell. Only ever courageous enough to admire (and gossip) about her from afar, she’d learned to steer clear of Greer’s radar in an act of social self-preservation.

They officially met during the latter part of Rhia’s freshman year, both inebriated and seeking solace in the bathroom of some nightclub or another. She recognized the scent of Louboutin before seeing Greer’s blonde waves and pouty lips. Greer didn’t so much as throw her a glance before slamming the stall door behind her, disheveled and unbalanced.

Greer was a notorious party girl, but nevertheless everyone accidentally crossed their limit one time or another. Are you okay? she asked meekly. Fantastic, she answered back, unamused. Eventually, her gentle coaxing convinced Greer to soften her reproach. It wasn’t anything Rhia hadn’t done a million times before for a million other girls - she stroked her back and consoled her through her struggles with a night of overdoing it. 

Of course, Greer likely only allowed so much assuming Rhia was a random chance encounter, rather than a fellow student from the same school. When she broke the news, for a moment she was certain whatever popularity she’d earned in the halls of Ogden were over. 

Much to her surprise, Greer put Rhia under a vow of silence... and in return, promised to make her an honorary Popular Girl with the help of her influence. In all honesty, she often believed Greer could barely tolerate her, let alone value their friendship. Rhia hardly saw the deal as the political scheme for what it was, rather desperately clinging onto the narrative her kindness bred a soft spot in Greer for her. 

She plucked and changed and refined much of Rhia’s public appearance; trading out obscure Rob Zombie shirts, red plaid, unnecessary buckled pieces for tennis skirts and cashmere and headbands. Greer bestowed her with luxury anti-frizz leave in and even several of her outdated designer pieces.

Rhia adored the pampered princess treatment, mending herself to every note of Greer’s and even emulating her mannerisms and speech. She loved the air of luxury she felt around Greer and her friends. She loved the attention. Though, not much could be done to wipe away her innate weirdness or fondness for those who despised what she stood for. 

People close to Rhia would often call into question the legitimacy of her relationship with Greer and her social group. She couldn’t deny there was some truth to these warnings; she bent over backwards to pander to people who likely never would have looked her way in the first place had she not been associated with Greer.

Still, she didn’t gain much from listening to Rhia drone on about her ill-fated love life over FaceTime, attending her showcases, or accompanying her on her many, spontaneous shopping trips. Perhaps some of their dynamic was transactional, but Rhia could accept that, convinced their kinship was genuine and mutual. Greer could be cruel and domineering on occasion, but she was one of the first people to openly encourage Rhia to take ownership of her personhood. 

friends: mari zuko, ollie inoue - bestie <3, monty richler, nate shaw - bestie<3. jacqui velazquez, anya saetang - close friend, charlie fletcher - the blair to her serena<3, parker walsh, link crawford - kindred spirits, leaky wright, greer morrison enemies: alethea pierce - frenemy, milo navarro - disliked by, henrietta astor - disliked by. romantic interests: nate shaw - crush, situationship, it’s complicated. jesse hart - ex-boyfriend. wanted connections: rave buddies, band buddies, BULLY, literally anyone to call her out on her bs, someone she cheated on, someone she was a bad friend to and holds a negative opinion of her, gym partner, toxic friend, maybe an ex fling or two, unlikely allies

the education