So about the gnomes?

"all that would be included in the summoning," dawn explains matter-of-factly, just short of tacking on duh. "a beetle would be so cool," she muses excitedly. "one of the minty green ones? a-and with the roof that goes all... away." she double takes to buffy. "are you gonna remember all this? 'cause i'm gonna have my drivers license soon and i'll need a car for college."

the poster child for complicated feelings about mother's day right here~

rumi, who never got a chance to know her birth mother. rumi, who grew up with a mother-figure forced into the role too young and before she was ready (maybe she never would have been ready, who knows). she loves celine like a mother, but i do believe celine was firm on never accepting that title, correcting rumi and reminding her about mi-yeong any time little rumi would call her eomma. this lowkey fucked rumi up (': between that and her patterns, rumi grew up with this feeling that if she just tried a little harder, if she was just perfect, if she could just seal the honmoon, then maybe —

as for mi-yeong, rumi’s feelings are... thin on the ground. mi-yeong died when she was just a baby, before rumi formed conscious memories of her. rumi loves her in theory — and carries a lot of guilt for the fact that in her heart? celine still is and has always been her mom. there's also a bit of resentment there — if mi-yeong hadn't hooked up with a demon, maybe she could have been normal; if mi-yeong had survived, maybe she could have grown up with love instead of shame — and she feels guilty for that, too.

I've been holding off an ugly OCD spiral the past couple of weeks. I have, in the past, expereinced incredibly severe OCD surrounding my art. It comes and goes. I'm medicated now and while I live almost entirely without OCD symptoms most of the time, it will occasionally kick me in the side with its death throes.

I get very very anxious about making sure I'm creating original work. When bad, it totally consumes me. Rarely, it manifest as an irrational fear of being coppied, but wayyy more commonly it manifests as a fear that I am somehow coppying or ripping off someone else's work.

Who? Literally. Actually no idea. Just anyone. Any art i've ever seen. Someone I've never met. Obviously, I don't copy other peoples art, I do a normal amount of referencing and talk openly about my own inspirations. But OCD is so deeply irrational and it thrives in even the smallest cracks of paranoia it can find.

The way it manifested in the past was redrawing the same illustrations over and over, beyond normal studying. I'd finish art that I used no reference for, and I'd be like "someone is going to think I coppied this, and maybe I did?? Well, now I have to draw it again from scratch to change it more and make sure its mine."

Any photos or vintage art I used for reference were always meticulously documented, saved to my pc and bookmarked so that I could correctly cite and credit anything I needed to. I became absolutely obsessed with keeping a record of my art. It was just a constant cycle of panic and anxiety any time I made art. It was so unhealthy.

I've experienced situations in the past that have really triggered the OCD, but that didn't directly cause it. Its just one of the ugly branches of OCD I have lived with for a very long time. I'm really good at identifying it these days. My logical internal voice is much louder than the paranoid passing thoughts that OCD subjects you to, and I've gotten so much better at just being normal and sincere about my art. Referencing amazing artists and celebrating when I am respectfully referenced in turn.

And yet. It just sits in the back of my head and waits until I'm tired, overworked, or worse, happy. It really likes to get loud when I'm feeling fulfilled or experiencing joy about experimenting or making art. I know I'll be fine! It has kicked before and will kick again. I get through it, and have experienced OCD about much more distressing things.

Its just the guy who shows up uninvited and I'm like. Oh my god you again? You're still here? How has my brain not bled you dry yet? How do you still get a rise out of me? ITS BEEN YEARS.

𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑  𝟕𝐓𝐇,  𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓  -  Seoul,  South  Korea.

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒  𝐈𝐒  𝐀𝐍  𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐘  𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐒  𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓.

𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆  𝐃𝐀𝐄-𝐇𝐎,  born  December  17th  2003  ;  rapper  of  the  idol  group  𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐌𝟒𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐄  and  his  partner,  𝐇𝐀𝐍  𝐒𝐎𝐎-𝐉𝐈𝐍 --  also  known  as  𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐌𝟒𝐊𝐄𝐑,  Seoul's  beloved  rapper  known  for  his  dark,  grunge-like  aesthetic,  born  October  11th  2000,  have  been  reported  as  missing  since  November  30th  2025.  No  calls  have  been  answered  by  Dae-ho  according  to  his  friends  and  family  since  November  30th,  2025.  Soo-jin,  too,  has  not  been  heard  from  since  November  30th,  2025.

Both  men  were  last  seen  entering  the  𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃  𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍  𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓  building  on  November  30th  2025,  but  staff  of  the  building  had  mentioned  sightings  of  the  duo  in  the  building  from  time  to  time.  It  wasn't  until  December  5th,  around  11:00pm,  that  not  even  the  staff  had  seen  them  since.

If  you  or  someone  you  know  has  any  information  regarding  the  whereabouts  of  the  last  two  members  of  𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐌𝟒𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐄,  please  call  the  Seoul  Police  Department  as  soon  as  possible.

We  will  update  as  soon  as  we  get  more  information.