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since i live with my muslim family, we don't celebrate christmas and i had an incredibly dull day while everybody else celebrated the festivites.

i went home and cleaned my room though! after, i ate chobani flip while watching some zb1 variety shows 👩‍💻

while i won't say i stan zb1, i do enjoy watching their varieties and hope they'll be able to work something out to be a permanent group. i can already imagine the haobin edits to about me by the 1975 if they seperate lol

initially, my plans for the day was to go to the salon for a much-needed haircut. 💇‍♀️ my hair is only a few inches off my waist but thanks to dyeing it monthly, it looks horrible. at some point, it was so terrible dry that fingercombing was almost ridiculous. caved and got a keratin treatment to get it fixed but it didn’t make my hair look all that good to be honest. now, i’m on a quest to make my hair healthy.

i’m definitely going to miss light hair but considering the financial upkeep, it’s best to focus on getting my natural hair right first… ugh. i really do look terrible with black hair though… and short hair! 😾

i’m so happy my hair has grown so long but because its quality is so bad, i just look a mess and according to the internet, there’s no fixing damaged hair besides a chop and making sure the growing inches are healthy. i can’t commit to a shoulder-length chop; though i’ve done it in the past, my face is so wide that it didn’t suit me as well as long hair does. more than that, i hate HATE!!!! the growing process. i really dislike mid-length hair! i want either short or long. mid-length is just… no! no! 💢 so i’m going to compromise and instead chop around my chest area. it’s more or less the length of my wet brush going to the gallows.

plans changed when my auntie told me we were going to driving downtown. driving as in going to a driving range to play golf and NOT driving around though we will have to do that to get there. i ended up just going with them since a hair appointment could be any day anyways :P and GOD, it’s so good that i did!

we dropped by my granduncle’s place for a bit due to some family chismis that i am so eager to spill but would be far too revealing of who i am. i really like my granduncle. he’s such a silly guy and i get so jealous of his daughter for having him as a father but then again, i get jealous of any girl with a loving dad around so whatever. he served us smores cake (good but honestly, i’m just not crazy about cake. cheesecake, sure, but the rest isn’t as fun) and kakanin. the kakanin wasn’t from him but from [censored because it’s related to the family chismis >:)].

it’s so good we visited him because it helped me decide on my current college program. i’m in my 2nd year but i should be in my 3rd except i shifted so got pulled back a bit. the thing is i don’t really care about my program and i worry about money a lot… after a bit of thinking, i considered pursuing medicine or at least dentistry again. i initially wanted to pursue medicine in the field of psychology or dentistry; but due to certain circumstances, i, of my own doing and clouded by my own melancholic thoughts, gave up on it to pursue fuck-knows-what. fuck-knows-what just leaves me so uninspired and after a lot of tears and conversations with my auntie, medicine is sort of maybe back on the table… the problem is i simply don’t have the passion for it.

i wanted medicine for psychology but i can’t shift to psychology anymore and dentistry is 6 whole years and i’d have to transfer to the only university in my city that has it and become one of the pioneering batch–no. that university is just a big no in my eyes. 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

now, see, my granduncle’sd daughter is an attorney and for some reason, i’ve been so caught up with staying in my current program and pursuing medicine that i forgot law school was an option too! unlike when i think of medicine, my heart feels light imagining myself as an attorney. i did graduate as a humss student and i also pursued psychology as my first program because it opened the path to law school so it’s silly that i didn’t even take it into consideration!

but that’s between me and you now. i don’t want to share my plans with my family, even my auntie who i first opened up to regarding my dilemma. i thought she would keep it between the two of us but other relatives have casually brought up my troubles and i’d pretend like my heart wasn’t literally shattering to hear them talk about something i never wanted to know lol

my only concern now is my pre-law but well, that’s for another day to stress over.

afterwards, we went downtown! 🚗 i thought only my youngest cousin would be playing while the rest of us watched but then everyone of them were getting ready and i felt so left out that i just said i was going to walk around… i feel kind of sad because my auntie did mention before that she wanted me to do golf so i thought if everyone was playing, i would too… 😿 but it’s no biggie! my walk was lovely!

the range was situated in a military infantry with lovely landscaping. sadly, my digicam died just as i was beginning my stroll so i didn’t get to capture much of the surroundings. there was a pretty puddle with lilypads too! is it lilypads? i think it’s lilypads… i saw one (1) tiny duck flying around. 🦆

i was temporarily stranded in a pavilion due to light rain. my feet were aching in my crocs wedges so i needed it anyways. i was hoping i could reach 10,000 steps but the light rain quickly returned after about 5 minutes of sunshine and by the time the rain was over, we were already near home. 🌧

at home, i welcomed my new water bottle🍶 i have quite a collection: a dented tyso, a stanley (not the quencher. i bought it years ago before quencher was released!), a starbucks with a dog and kitty design, a random owala dupe from shopee aaand a fake stanley x loveshakefancy tumbler. there should be about 4 aquaflasks counted in it but i lost all of them…… the one i use everyday is the fake stanley one due to the straw and it being ½ of my 40oz bottles but the lid broke and honestly, it wasn’t maintaining the heat or cold that well so i figured it was worth replacing as someone who practically can't go anywhere without carrying one

after a looot of research (read: looking through reddit testimonies), klean kanteen became my winner. not only was its insulation well-praised, i liked its materials (their straw is stainless steel + rubber instead of plastic) and their effort to be eco-conscious. i was particularly eyeing a bottle with a straw since i already had a 40oz non-straw (the owala dupe). klean kanteen didn’t have much options and at first, i wasn’t the biggest fan of the color i chose (though it is what i liked best of the selection) but upon unboxing, i fell in love! it’s so pretty! ⭐️🩷

lol i just realized you can barely see the color... it's pink and purple! TRUST it's cutesie 😸

this is going to be my last water bottle buy. i swear i don’t have an addiction! i have reasons for having quite a number, okay? plus, klean kanteen was so expensive… the only reason i went through with the purchase was thanks to the payday sale that had it up for P1,560 instead of its usual price. otherwise i just Can't

anyways!!! i’m back to watching boys planet now that i’m home 🪐

i haven’t really been giving much of my thoughts on the show so far, right? i’ll do it in another blogpost since i feel like i’m already more rambly than usual. it’s because i’m not typing on bluesky!!! i usually write everything on bluesky and cross-post on tumblr but for the first time, i’m writing on tumblr!!!! the question now is how i’ll make it fit on my bluesky… i’ll worry about that later…