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like that post floating around about loving your blorbos so much you want them covered in blood clutching their own lacerated organs with a look of terror.

and my absolute fave part is he's never once like 'why, poor me' or 'damn i don't deserve this' which gets exhausting. it's just the state of affairs on his world. just another sunday. cathartic.

blacked out and drafted/scripted over 15 pages of the comic in one day

personal yapping below cut

(speaking about one character but with options i mean. like one romanceable character but the romance plays out different depending on PCs gender)

ive seen a few projects now where it's like oh. having discussed this, we just can't do it. Give the character one and focus on that or make it "game-bi/pansexual" but lose the interplay of gender completely and all the crazy escalation that often entails even in worldbuilds where there is homogenous gender equality.

wanting to create a depth that could have been or exploring off-the-beaten-path is a big driving force for me.

speaking as a bisexual that used to think i needed to be interested only in women because of the structure i grew up in, i wish more narratives in media (especially games leading the charge here wayyyy ahead) were able to explore sexuality in a non-standard way.

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my hands are on fire the kitchen is a mess, there's drafts on the floor and im sweating. i feel like a mad genius

So my main summary for it: I can understand how he turned out the way he did. Shit dad, the reason for his mother's job and resulting suicide. Passed around the foster care system, which is known to be absolutely terrible in Japan. Multiple times in his story, you see he's insecure about being unwanted, despite his charisma and confidence.

For the longest time we're led to believe he's super privileged for being born as the Rat--which...is true, but also not at the same time. He ended up being just as ostracized as the Cat, Kyo, both Akito's doing.

The tradition for isolating the cat ran for generations yes, but after Akito's father passed and she snapped, that's where it went downhill for Yuki.

Convincing him that everyone hated him, isolating him, mentally abusing him for years. He reached out to Ayame once and was snubbed, his mother sold him for status(his father exists but he never hear anything about him), he went mute for a little while even, until he finally begged Shigure to take him away.

I was really happy when the remake included Yuki's full backstory, since a lot of anime-onlys were convinced Yuki was just an asshole, and the moment the episode came out, a vast majority of them changed their tune.