Silver Pearl

Words couldn't describe how much I miss you Ayah. My daily routine has changed. Every time I came home, the first person I would be looking for is Ayah and then Mama. Bila keluar je selalu terpikir 'Eh ayah tgh tggu kat rumah' every time bangun tidur je 'eh ayah dah breakfast ke?' every time dalam bilik je 'eh ayah sorang2 kat depan.' but turns out whenever i went to the living room, his chair was empty. It was all memories and he has left us for real. Thank you so much untuk segalanya Ayah. You have taught me a lot of things. You taught me how to be independent and not to rely on you, you told me to be brave and overcome things that i'm afraid of. You and mama are always there for me during my ups and down. Terima kasih sebab jaga mira dari kecik sampai besar, terima kasih sebab ayah, mama dengan adik-adik selalu buat mira tersenyum, selalu buat mira happy. Mira rindu yang teramat rindu dan hanya mampu tengok ayah melalui gambar sahaja. Alhamdulillah, syukurillah, Mira redha dengan pemergian ayah. Lama dah kitorg jaga ayah... walaupun kehidupan dah takkan sama, kitorang cuba untuk kuat okay? You will always be in my heart <3

Al-fatihah.

"Tak semua rindu dapat di ubati dalam waktu yang singkat. Tapi yakin, Allah tahu segala isi hati."

-25.08.1965-16.11.2022-

It was one of the best moments in my life. Finally I was able to meet iKON <3 The concert was so much fun and enjoyable. Big thanks to my friends who gave me 2 free tickets for CAT 1 2 days before the concert hahaha <3 I thought I couldn't go but in the end, I did go lol. I've been supporting them ever since Winner Who is Next? and also Mix and Match and never in my entire life i thought I couldn't meet them :') even though Jinwan wasn't there, but I still had so much fun :)) sighhhh TAKE ME BACK TO THEIR CONCERT PLEASEEEE. I still remember a night before their concert, I was listening to their concert setlist, prepared my clothes, and everything. sighhh TAKE ME BACKKKK hahahahaha h

Assalamualaikum and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Phewww I'm getting older :')))

Anyways, celebrated new year with my cousins after so long we haven't meet each other ^^

It was splendid and I don't even wanna go back to KL haha because one day with them is not enough. There are many things we wanna talk about but have no time ><

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2022 was such a roller coaster ride.

May 2023 bring me lots of happiness and may Allah swt ease everything for me 😊

Happy Birthday Dearself :)

Alhamdulillah, Syukurilillah. I was still given a chace to celebrate my birthday this year :)

My very first birthday without Ayah by my side, but Alhamdulillah, Mama and my siblings are still here with me,

Who always gave me strength.

It's been a month Ayah has left us, but this heart of mine is still Missing you Ayah.

Missing your face, missing your laughter that you gave us.

But it's okay, Im a strong girl.

To all my friends and relatives, thank you so much for you Dua's and wishes and for singing the birthday song for me. so sweet lah korang <3

I've read every single words and some of you guys even made me cry! You guys told me to be strong, told me to be happy all the time.

Again, so sweet and caring lah korang!

To my family, thank you very much for making a surprise for me at first in the morning. I LOVEEEEE IT. (cries)

On my special day, Miss you even more ayah <3

Last but not least, Happy 26th Dearself <3

Such a memorable trip i had with my colleagues. Working while travelling. Thank you very much for this opportunity. After 9 years, im finally back travelling in Langkawi! LAst time I went here with my family and I remember that my dad brought us here right after i've finished my SPM exam. (Love you dad <3). Well at first, I refused to go because there are so many obstacles in preparing for this course (well my office obviously. in terms of payment ==) but Alhamdulillah we managed to settle it. As usual, Langkawi Island will always have a magnificient view. Seeing the natures such as mountains, sea, sky gave me peace. It does help me release all of my heavy thoughts. Places that we visited:

KILIM GEOFOREST PARK

LANGKAWI CABLE CAR (GUNUNG MAT CINCANG)

MAHA TOWER

KRAFTANGAN LANGKAWI

LANGKAWI CONVENTION CENTRE

Once again, thank you very much. It truly is a moments to remember.

Had so much fun at Balai Seni Negara <3 Ever since that day, I've been telling myself i should stay positive and smiles all the time no matter how hard it was. It worked. Some people have noticed that i was being so cheerful all the time and Im so glad it worked by spending my free time doing things that I love. One of my favourite painting was the Asma ul Husna. It was place at the entrance at the second floor in the Art Gallery. Perfectly painted.

Dearself,

Leave all those sadness and negative mindset behind,

Took a leave for 2 days right after our country independence day because I really need it. I need a break after so many days and months of working. Went out with my sister to get some dessert and take a stroll around KL city. It was a healing for me. Alhamdulillah syukur Ya Rahman for the rezeki that you gave me. I got a new job with a better position than the previous company that I work. I do hope that I would be very happy working at this company. Though sometimes i feel so discourage, but every single day i told myself that no matter how hard it was, i have to stay strong and I can do this. I admit, I cried a lot. I tried to stay positive all the time and know that this is a test from Allah swt. I missed my friend a lot at my previous company. I missed the happiness and laughter that I used to have before. I feel so anxious in whatever I said nor do. I keep questioning myself 'should I be here?' 'Did I do anything wrong?' 'Are they hating me because im the youngest here?' there are SOOOOOO many questions. EVERY SINGLE DAY. I tried so hard to stay calm. But im so thankful to my mom and my lil sis who have been listening to me. I told them, one of the things that makes me really happy is writing. I found myself REALLY HAPPY when im writing. Both of them support me <3 ( I'll try to write more and let my story to be publish later ><) To my family, thank you for your encouraging words because it really motivates me to be positive. My family are the reason why I smile and the reason why I stay strong <3

To myself,

Stay syukur and sabar with all the tests that Allah swt has given to you.

Life is fun if you appreciate it.

Stay strong and smile.

Don't be sad because Allah is with you.