All I've ever wished
Is to bask freely in the absolute light
That is my best friend.
For years he's the only person,
Only event,
To ever keep me warm, the gruesome hell hounds at bay
Saving my psyche from the gluttonous ruin that is just,
me.
I continuously singed my fingertips, reaching out,
Holding him up,
Holding his hand,
Breathing life into this dream.
Even if it was only ever meant to be that,
a dream.
Such sweet smells my burned flesh made,
When finally soothed by the waters of his love I had almost forgotten the taste of.
And then I devoured that essence,
The very water and fire that I stoked,
Now sustained me.
I don't intend to eat so fast, gulp down his love so hungrily.
But I felt starving,
For something I've never truly had,
Not the way he gives it, makes me feel.
Not in a real sense the way his love is.
I would rip the very fabric of God's creation,
Plunge the universe into chaos and steal the very air from the earth
If he asked me too.
I would grow and change, love and create, learn temperance, show forgiveness
And curb my anger,
As much as I would destroy on his command.
He is every particle of me
That has ever experienced true happiness.
I'll be in love,
With him....
Always and beyond and beyond and beyond.
Hunh, "to infinity and beyond" I suppose.
