Fire Thief

and i need to take a pill to make this town feel okay

what if things were different? i was born at the worst time in the worst of places.

i feel so alienated i can barely stand up. i'd crawl like a roach or like a beast, i'm completely dehumanised. the thick hair on my body hides and covers me, beneath it i imagine my skin to be purple and swollen

pinned to a chair 8 hours a day, not really doing anything, not even breathing. this human condition is an inefficient joke. i'm turning into a cinic, feeling the need to wipe out society. maybe i am anti-social, but i have friends, i am kind, i hang out every day. but i can't ignore the dagger that's pointed at my throat... i am anti-society, which is a synonym of "corporation" nowadays. "people" is a subjective word, you can be a person (owner), a consumer or a slave. keep consuming if you don't want to be a slave. just consume, consume, consume! encourage consumption! C O N S U M E !

I am a star, I am a star

(drink with me, darlin')

it made me want to tell her about myself, the one i hate. but i made a pause too long and the words wouldn't come out. i held her tight when she left, it's small things but i'm never so intimate

the earliest appointment i could get is in 22 days. part of me silently accepted it as a surrender, or like a russian roulette game. make it out of 22 rounds only slightly damaged. put a bullet where the noise is coming from. i think i have tinnitus from screaming in my brain too often

lately i've been extra careful when i drink to avoid your number, but i still slipped up. you know i'm messed up because i miss you

on your gun made of silver

We’re just protecting ourselves from our self

so many things are changing in days but i can't tell the difference. if i told all that is happening to my 6 months past-self he wouldn't understand a word. but all i do is the same, except that i read less, drink less and write less, and i don't have you to keep me warm at night. i still play videogames, listen to music before i fall asleep, but don't go out with those friends anymore (it's a crushing relief). i'm "hopelessly hopeful" about the future and i can't wait to move to another country, i really can't