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Idk why the quality on this is so bad oml

Also sorry this is just a lot of jumbled thoughts and typos I’ve spat out in this caption, but I’m not proof reading shit for a damn Tumblr post.

I’ve been a creepypasta fan since I was very young. Ben has always been my favorite, I know the whole argument about BEN and Ben and all of that but I’m not going to lie, as cool as BEN is, I do love just a good story about the sad little ghost boy, separate from BEN and the whole story about the college student and the game cartridge. This is just a little thing I’ve been working on for fun, so I hope whoever sees this likes it, I’ve put a small amount of info about my thoughts on this version of Ben bellow:

My version of Ben is honestly very closely tied to a lot of the media I consumed about creepypasta growing up, unsurprisingly ijustwannahavefun on YouTube was one of my all time favorites. Their animation and style is just so fun. But I’ve adopted some of that Origin from them, I mostly use the story about Ben being a 13-15 ish year old boy who was killed by his abusive father in a small town, a town that related to a lot of other lore of some of the other pastas as well actually. But that’s for another day, I also have tied in Zalgo a bit (spoiler alert: I HATE THAT FUCKING GUY.) I like the idea of Ben’s killing having something to do with a cult, likely the same cult as EJ however I don’t think his dad was in the cult just because I imagine him as just some stupid drunk asshole not some evil mastermind. But this version of Ben is very close with Jeff and also EJ, they are like brothers to him, which is complicated for Jeff considering how fucked up his relationship with Lui is, but in a way having almost an adopted little brother has kind of helped him with fixing that relationship. I also don’t think Ben would really go out of his way to kill, I understand the appeal and how these scary killer characters were the origin of copypastas and creepypastas however in this version just utilizing this story of Ben, who’s just a young boy who’s been through a lot and I think it’s complicated enough knowing the people closest to him are actively killing people, since being killed by a bad man is the whole reason he’s having these problems to begin with. But he known that Jeff and EJ don’t kill kids, and outside of that he just tries to not think about it too hard. I think they all hate Slenderman at least secretly since it’s kinda his fault a lot of their lives went to shit. I mean yea it’s Zalgo’s fault too but Jack was gonna be a surgeon and live a successful fulfilling life of helping people if it wasn’t for those assholes. But as far as Ben goes, he’s not a proxy, he hates Slenderman and HATES Zalgo, but that’s about all. He spends his time playing games, exploring, and bonding with other pastas, which I think he deserves to do since he’s been literally to hell and back and he’s just a little boy. In this drawing he’s lite exploring and hanging out, he found a cool sword and shiny ring in the forest, a lot of weird shit has gone down in those woods so who knows where it actually came from.

Just to make this super clear: I HATE the twinkification and sexualization of Ben, he is a little boy so that’s WEIRD. I also don’t like the versions of him where he’s like just a little perv, like I have a little brother, know a 14 y/o boy is gross sometimes but I don’t like how people make is so extreme and sexual. So that’s also super weird.

I really love Tim and Brian together, and even outside of cannon I find comfort in the idea of them knowing each and slowly growing closer and they both reach a place in their lives that leave them craving more security. This isn’t idolizing them however since I know they would have plenty of their own issues. But I have loved marble hornets for a really long time and I’m a huge fan of its creators and wanted to share this little drawing I did

This is my first serious post on tumblr, For some reason it never occurred to me that I can like post my art on the internet for other people to also enjoy, even though I often enjoy the art other people share.