Greetings! Apologies for having been quiet recently, I had some things to sort out that unfortunately lead to me writing this post - The TL;DR is that both my mental and physical health, but especially physical in this case, fully demand my time and energy right now. This sadly means no streams for the month of June, with a tenative return sometime in July, but I genuinely cannot promise anything.
The somewhat longer version is that I did not start this year off on the best foot to begin with - I expected it would be a rough one mentally and I was sadly right (one of those things you really don't want to be right about but alas). Exacerbating that were physical health issues that recently finally became bad enough that I felt they were diagnoseable issues and not "merely" effects of my very fluctuating mental state. I have now been diagnosed with a type of tendonitis in my hands, particularly the left one, and ear issues that almost became another nasty ear infection, so I am now being treated for both. For the hands, this involves physical therapy on a weekly basis as well as several times daily treatment I have to apply at home. It's not hard, just even more to keep track of, when I am already having a hard time with doing exactly that!
Next week I will also be seeing a neurologist to hopefully, finally make headway on getting proper help for my mental health. Without going into too much detail, there are reasons to believe that there might be something physical going on in the old brain beyond what I already know, so I'll have brain scans and other fun things in my future.
On top of all this, I am still attending driving school so I can get my drivers license, which takes up two evenings per week just with theory lessons alone.
All in all, it's a lot for one tiny birb! Something had to give, and as much as I tried to avoid it, the give in this case has to be my streams and art.
Being an entertainer is my life and my career. It is not exaggeration when I say that I have tried many things, and I was bad at almost all of them, except for entertaining people. Bringing joy to people is my deepest passion, and I am immensely lucky that I can afford to do it as my job ... but it is still that, my job, and as such requires my energy, attention, and physical health to be there. Right now, I am at 0 out of 3 for those, and that's just not gonna work.
I cannot say enough thanks for how lovely you, my audience, have been and how lucky and privileged I am to have an audience at all, let alone one that has treated me with kindness, patience, and great support. I can just tell I have not been at my best this year in general and I am extremely sorry that's not changing in the short term. Y'all deserve the best Perry, and I will do what I need to be that again!
If you have read this far, remember I greatly appreciate you, and that I can only hope that you can stick around for when I am back. Be kind to yourself, and take it one day at a time. I will do the same!
I'll try my best to pipe up sometimes on my Bluesky and elsewhere!
Be well and see you soon,
Perry