Nicole

The people who I hangout with, left me out today. I thought I could trust them but I guess not. One of them thought of me while the others didn't. I'm surrounded by fake friends but I'm scared to leave and find different people to be friends with. But I can't because of my social anxiety.

I think I'm happy at the moment. Me and my "friend" are talking more maybe I can let her be my friend again. But I'm afraid she will leave me again. Talking to her makes me happy. Should I break the walls down again or leave with them up till I have full trust in her.

I could disappear and no one would notice. Why do my friends leave me for some else. It has happened so many times. I'm ready for college to meet new people. I would be happier somewhere else where no one knows me.