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sorry tumblr! I forgor :( I'm taking a short break from a coding assignment to update you guys on all the like four streams I've done

"Can I beat a rando before you kill me?" Hollow Knight Crowd Control high settings randomiser stream | 25/02 TL;DR, sad CC was underused imo, but def will try again oo, this was a pretty fun one! tbh, the crowd control was used less than I was hoping, and Pure Vessel *only* appeared once, which like slightly crashed the game, as well as someone giving me enough lifeblood to last an entire playthrough. I enjoy any opportunity to play this game, though, later, upon trying to do more of the rando, I didn't want to play tons because waterways and edge kinda suck yk what I'm sayin

"vampire and friends try not to die!!" Peak/R.E.P.O. community night stream | 28/02 TL;DR, I love doing things with my community they're awesome I haven't played either of these games in a while, and it was nice to revisit them, especially with friends from in my community! unfortuneately, the Peak run died fairly early, but on the bright side, it was nice to play with the people who joined me for that run, and it did more or less perfectly align with the time I'd said I'd start repo. Repo was also really good, got up to nonsense there and died only a couple times. it's amazing how every time the shop turns into a bloodbath lmfao but always a joy

"fraud tomorrow" ULTRAKILL Layer 8 stream | 04/03 TL;DR, I want to get off mr hakita's wild ride I was dyinggggggg to play Fraud since it released a week before this. thankfully, holding off this long allowed some bug patches to go through, and so I things ran smoother than what might've happened on release. Fraud really did not disappoint, and even now when I play the layer, I still don't know which way is up. It's a crazy convoluted mess of non-euclidean level design and one of my favourite gaming experiences, I think. however, I did have a light headache once I finished up, and after a short break I did a little cooldown by playing some Dead Cells, just something I'm v comfortable with

"fih" Dredge stream | 07/03 TL;DR, fun game, thematic ending, def more to it I left a poll up to the community the Friday before this stream about which game to stream. It's almost guaranteed a mistake to ask a twitch community anything, as the poll ended it a three-way tie between Dredge, Terraria and Going Under (Balatro got a vote, Slay the Spire got none). I resolved this in the second fairest way I know, asking someone who didn't vote in the poll which one I should go for. They picked Dredge but try and add a withered Foxy jumpscare mod to the game. I forgot (and hadn't looked into where Dredge mods are typically catalogued) so we were left with vanilla. I did a little exploration, and finished a couple side quests before embarking on what I think is just the standard ending for the game. I'm wiling to bet that there're more endings to the game, but hey, Cthulu's here, I guess. I can't wait to fully finish the game, so that I can look at a more in-depth analysis of the lore of this game, as it does really interest me, and Lovecraftian horror is something I want to consume more of. I'm probably going to leave it for off stream stuff, or as a filler stream for when I don't know what to stream. it could def have been a main stream game, but circumstances did not allow for that

TL;DR, my laptop hates me!!

Today's stream was a bit impromptu, and makes it 2/2 streams that are off the schedule I announced I would stick to. however, I wanted to give the demo for a game called Romestead a go and the *actual* scheduled streams wouldn't allow for it (the demo closes before the first free slot).

I've honestly been enjoying these recent streams where I chat nonsense before getting into the game. I hadn't done it as much, and I do understand why people do it now, lol. it did slightly lead to spending a solid half an hour remembering pokemons' names. except like charmeleon apparently!

by the time I got back on track and booted the game at last, it turned out that the game was a little unoptimised for streaming, at least for lower-spec devices. it's probably because it loads in the whole area at once? I'm unsure, but I'm sure there's some optimisation it could make. I then moved on to try and stream Umamusme, but it didn't want to capture, so then I moved on to Balatro, which did want to capture. for the duration of the stream, I left the window capture for my browser up, which had the pokemon guesser up, which I think would only be slightly aesthetically displeasing while I played Balatro.

TL;DR, Risk of Rain 2 collab was really fun! however, for the stream, it was a Risk of Frames. not doing that again.

today was a really fun stream! for me. yeah. first and foremost, it was really nice to collaborate with a friend of mine after having put out a post looking to collab with more people. it's very nice to have a "tangible" result from something you've done. the game played smoothly for me, and I only forgot to do a couple of things when setting up stream, namely not starting to play the bg music for the starting soon for like a couple minutes, and forgetting to unmute my friend for a while. this was my first collab with someone I don't speak to as regularly as the people I had done so before and I think it unnerved me a little bit, so I forgot things I normally wouldn't have.

The worst bits actually came while playing the game. so many frames were eaten and the stream delay was inexcusibly long. though, it was more than just stream delay or being laggy, moreso that, upon looking back at it, the audio actually got ahead of the video so there was a terrible disconnect there. Honestly, it was a miracle that the stream had an average viewership of three (typical CCV is like 6-10), like I wouldn't (and don't want to) watch my side of the stream. thank goodness that my friend's side of the stream played nicely.

I think the cherry on top of all the bull was that I even got a raid from another streamer who's really nice, and I like watching too, and they even commented their stream before today [yesterday] that they'd really wanted to catch one of mine. very sad that it was *this* stream that they were able to raid into.

Going forwards, I'm gonna test on an alt account if some games I'd like to play in future to see if they're both streamable and watchable. games such as Deep Rock Galatic, because I've been playing that a bunch off stream and I'd love to play with some friends on stream too. until then they'll probably be a community night kinda thing.

hello tumblr! I am Mesian, pronounced Mez-ee-an (a looooooooot of people get this wrong, lmao), and I am a vampire pngtuber over on twitch! I play a variety of games, mostly indie titles such as Hollow Knight, Celeste (and more recently, I started on Strawberry Jam Collab), Dead Cells, and more that I have and would like to play. I do my best to have a nice relaxing space in which everyone can relax.

To be honest, I'm not entirely sure on what I'm doing here, in that I'm not looking to promote my stuff, and I don't know what actually happens on tumblr beyond the haha funny clips that make their way over onto Insta or tiktok. I think I am gonna use this space to comment on streams, what things were cool and what things I like and what I think I could improve on. hell, I might even learn something or have an epiphany while commenting on a past stream. and also I'll put up whatever thoughts I deem worthy having on the internet here too. I hope we can find out footing together :D

I'll be around and about and I'm not sure about the longevity of me on this site, but who knows what may happen.