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TRACK ONE:  no halo  by  brockhampton.  “do i matter? i'm ecstatic, i'm depressed, more like god's special mess, never had no halo.”

whenever jimin listens to this song, it alleviates the societal pressures he’s given on the daily as an idol. the public expects nothing less than a pristine image from him; as if he’s given no room to be human. despite the way he presents himself on stage or in front of cameras, he’s not perfect. there are days where he’s not at his best, where he makes mistakes, and he can only express these emotions under the covers, eyes welled up with tears. what’s worse is that because he feels he can’t express these emotions, he’s convinced that he has to go through it alone. all he wants is for the world to know that he can’t keep this act up without falling apart. that he has no halo.

TRACK TWO:  thursday  by  got7.  “we’re now thursday i want to fill your weekend, my weekend... we’re now thursday.”

he first realized that he loved her on a thursday. when this song comes on, it brings him back to the beginning stages of their relationship... how good it felt when they were together. there wasn’t anything that came in their way, and they enjoyed each moment together. it brings back all of the memories where he’d hold her hand and dance the night away, the way she laughed at whatever lame joke left his lips, how everything was perfect. it reminds him of why falling in love was the best feeling, and he should only remember these parts of it rather than the bad. hearing it gives him that hope that one day, he’ll experience that kind of love again. fully, without the fear.

TRACK THREE:  lose you to love me  by  selena gomez.   “you promised the world and i fell for it, i put you first and you adored it...”

like with all relationships, the honeymoon period had to come to an end. people’s true identities begin to show as the rose-colored glasses begin to fade. in jimin’s case, after over a year of dating her, the secret came out. he was lied to. deceived. her intentions with him were always calculated, considering the fact that she turned out to be an obsessed fan who did whatever she could to be close to him. even if it meant to lie. whenever jimin listens to this song, he’s reminded of the heartbreak he’s felt upon letting go of the relationship. he had to lose her to love himself, to respect himself, and swore to never open up again.

TRACK FOUR:  zombie  by  day6.  “breathin', but ive been dyin' inside nothin' new and nothin' feels right...”

a song that perfectly illustrates the way jimin feels on a bad day. after the separation these bad days turned to every day, because of the way the situation was handled (he was blackmailed, and is now being stalked). it’s as if he can’t escape, which caused him to go into this downward spiral. what seemed like sunshine and rainbows on the outside felt different on the inside, as if he’s dying. lifeless and unhappy. he feels like a zombie. even if a significant amount of time has passed, things haven’t gotten that much better. but, he has to constantly pretend that everything is fine. if you hear this song blasting in jimin’s room on repeat, he’s crying.

TRACK FIVE:  dynamite  by  bts.  “'cause i'm in the stars tonight, so watch me bring the fire and set the night alight.”