Ā š.Ā just gonna congratulate you for making it this far. this is just a massive reminder before you dive into the regulations.. i work very hour heavy jobs. i tend to disappear for days, weeks and months at a time. due to said jobs. this excludes personal life.Ā Ā so far im gonna be available tue & wedns. & some saturdays.
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currently at work so my hands are tied by the Horrors⢠but just know⦠Iām slowly starting to hard block. Since Iām mobile bound atmš«” Iāll see you on the other side of the war.
Good afternoon my lovelies, I will be online later I completely forgot that I reserves spots for oomf and my sisters to watch TADC. Iām SO EXCITED AAA
Since this will be my last OOC post until later on this evening / tomorrow or Tuesday of next week.
once youāve thoroughly read Iād really appreciate it if you could please like this && understand if a certain outcome happens on your end. Itās a long read. Iām a broken record .
After a very stressful and overwhelming few weeks, Iāve been delaying taking action when it comes to curating the space I want to log into. Logging in has honestly been one of the least motivating things for me lately. Iāve been completely burned out due to a lot of different factors ā work has been stressful, and Iāve had a lot going on in my personal life that I donāt feel comfortable putting out publicly, with the exception of close friends.
But the thing is, I do want to log on. I want to get back into the rhythm of writing again. I want this to feel like a hobby again, not some massive chore or something that makes me feel bad every time I scroll through my dash. Iām sure many of you, regardless of fandom or RPC, have experienced this feeling before ā or maybe you havenāt at all ā but the anxiety of being replaced, or feeling like Iām bothering everyone I try to reach out to has been eating at me. Iām not here to bash anyone. There are so many talented people on my dash, and I genuinely have nothing but praise for the writers I see here. My mind is just being very unkind to me. I feel guilty for feeling this way, and I am still actively trying to work through my emotions. and I feel guilty for feeling this way. Iām still actively trying to work through those emotions.
Because of that, and because I want to avoid feeling so negative every time I log in, Iāve decided that Iām going to start hard blocking users who followed me first but have yet to interact with me, reply to me, or show any interest in writing / talking whatsoever. I do feel bad doing this because I understand that starting and continuing conversations with someone you barely know can be difficult. Sometimes vibes donāt match. Sometimes people just arenāt compatible, as strange as that term feels to use here. I get it. This isnāt meant to be cruel, petty, distant, or ungrateful. I just really need to start protecting my peace more.
Starting at 2PM PDT, Iāll be starting a new in a sense?. This will include deleting very old asks and drafts, removing muses I no longer feel confident writing, and adding muses I feel more comfortable with. I still intend to do a pretty massive clean-up of this blog when Iām able, including followers, interactions, and heavily restricting things to mutuals only.
if you end up blocked and genuinely wish not to be, Iām not against talking things out. We are adults here, and I donāt want this to come across as me shutting the door forever without room for understanding. Communication goes both ways, and I think we all need to be mindful of one anotherās feelings, boundaries, and comfort levels. If there was a misunderstanding, or if someone wants to reach out respectfully, Iām willing to listen. I just ask that the same understanding and patience be extended to me as well.
I love you guys, and I do care about this space, but lately coming online has made me feel awful more often than not. I donāt want to feel that way about a hobby or a place thatās supposed to bring me comfort. Im not perfect. I struggle a lot with insecurity, anxiety, and very horrid when it comes to communication. When things feel one-sided, uncertain, or silent, my mind tends to spiral and overthink. When thereās a lack of interaction or uncertainty, I start to feel like Iām the problem ā and it should never feel like that. I also donāt ever want my writing partners to feel that way either.
I also mostly blame myself for promising to send things out, only to get stuck, overwhelmed, or pulled away because of life. Words arenāt enough to express how grateful I am toward those who waited, stayed, and had patience with me through everything.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for understanding. I love and appreciate you all more than I can properly say.
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Iām alive. And sleeping with one eye open. ITS ALMOST TIME FOR PEAKKKK. Any time now omg. But!!! I wanna be more active here but itās so much easier to be active on priv š itās just an anxiety issue. I wouldnāt be feeling this way if the block feature actually BLOCKED ppl fr on this hoe site. Anyway once the stress and icky inner people pleaser subsides Iāll be back to writing a lotš
Considering my final month of working will be in June <3 and schooling/ uni schedule is still pending.
Random freak till ramble while Iām waiting for some administrator @ my uni.
Low key yall can't convince me he doesn't like a bait and switch. He'll let his partner think theyāre getting somewhere, then drag em back by the neck at the last moment. He gives misleading or conflicting directions, or pretends not to see little slips in obedience, or sets tasks then makes them impossible to achieve. He feigns satisfaction, then rug-pulls with punishment.
he's gentle with how he handles his partners but whatever comes out of his mouth is super condescending. A mocking / taunting like tone, talks down on them, cooing at them, yet he's torturing em painfully gentle and slow.
Low keyā¦.obsessive. Heās Kleptomaniac. stealing random shit from his partner here and there. At first, it was just to annoy them, but once Till actually starts falling in love with them it becomes a way for him to sate his growing obsession.
In the span of 3 days shit has went downhill so fast. Iām not gonna delve too much into it but to make a long story short. Toxic home situation thatās been going on for years -> deadline to move out. My activity will be more spotty until things sort out.
Even on discord but I will do my absolute best to reply. Both here and on the cord. Apologies for my constant absences or disappearances. Pls take care of yourselves && know ily ā¤ļø
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over a year ago,Ā i made this meme &Ā since then,Ā itās blown up.Ā so,Ā over a year laterĀ ā i thought i would make a new one.Ā so here it is,Ā after several requests &Ā a pile of brains,Ā THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2
send me aĀ āæĀ and iāll fill out the template below.Ā boldĀ for things i couldĀ definitely see or want,Ā italicsĀ for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i donāt want or cannot see.
FRIENDSHIP. Ā Ā childhood friendsĀ /Ā work buddies or coworkersĀ Ā /Ā family friendsĀ /Ā friends with benefitsĀ /Ā smoking buddiesĀ /Ā adventure buddiesĀ /Ā fake friendsĀ /Ā recently friendsĀ /Ā party buddiesĀ /Ā friendship of needĀ /Ā dying friendshipĀ /Ā circumstantial friendshipĀ /Ā partners in crimeĀ /Ā old friendshipĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is the good influenceĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is the bad influenceĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is the good influenceĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is the bad influenceĀ /Ā opposites attractĀ /Ā ride or dieĀ /Ā frenemiesĀ Ā /Ā roommates or flatmatesĀ /Ā penpalsĀ /Ā exes to friendsĀ /Ā enemies to friendsĀ Ā /Ā other
ROMANCE. Ā Ā childhood sweetheartsĀ /Ā [Ā your muse is minesĀ ]Ā childhood crushĀ /Ā [Ā my muse is yoursĀ ]Ā childhood crushĀ /Ā exesĀ /Ā exes to loversĀ /Ā forbidden loversĀ /Ā highschool sweetheartsĀ /Ā secret relationshipĀ /Ā opposites attractĀ /Ā long distanceĀ /Ā unrequited [Ā from your muses sideĀ ]Ā /Ā unrequited [Ā from my muses sideĀ ]Ā /Ā unrequited [Ā from both sidesĀ ]Ā /Ā skinny loveĀ /Ā friends to loversĀ /Ā enemies to loversĀ /Ā spurious relationshipĀ /Ā power coupleĀ Ā /Ā newly enteredĀ /Ā soulmates [Ā metaphorical ]Ā /Ā soulmatesĀ [Ā literal ]Ā /Ā awkwardĀ /Ā turning toxicĀ /Ā toxic loveĀ /Ā cheating [Ā on your museĀ ]Ā /Ā cheating [Ā with your museĀ ]Ā /Ā otherĀ
FAMILIAL. Ā Ā siblings [Ā half ]Ā /Ā siblings [Ā step ]Ā /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is an older sibling figure to yourĀ younger sibling figureĀ Ā /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a younger sibling figure to yourĀ older sibling figure museĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a parental figure to yoursĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is a child figure to your museĀ /Ā guardian figureĀ /Ā legal guardianĀ /Ā adoptive childĀ /Ā foster childĀ /Ā [Ā your museĀ ]Ā is taken under mines wingĀ /Ā [Ā my museĀ ]Ā is taken under yours wingĀ /Ā other
ANTAGONISTIC. Ā Ā dangerous to each otherĀ /Ā dangerous to othersĀ /Ā unpredictableĀ /Ā rivalsĀ /Ā pettyĀ /Ā developing into sexual or romantic tensionĀ /Ā based off family mattersĀ /Ā based of off circumstanceĀ /Ā based of professional mattersĀ /Ā based off misunderstanding or liesĀ /Ā conflict of ideologyĀ /Ā betrayalĀ /Ā hero - villain dynamicĀ /Ā enemiesĀ /Ā fight clubĀ /Ā friends turned enemiesĀ /Ā lovers turned enemiesĀ /Ā exes turned enemiesĀ /Ā otherĀ
On a very different note: Iām heavily considering changing my layout? Might still be around alnst orā¦link click since my tism / hyperfixations is clutching them like a lifeline.
Stuck between keeping it as till / switching to Luka or Ivanā¦o r mizi (bc Iām adding her. She needs more love )
ā¢also I plan to revise my roster. Because I feel so bad for those who want to write HSR / Genshin muses / wuwa when for some I havenāt made it far in the game and Iām like š§āāļøš GXHSBSN.
Mydei & Sunday are staying ofc. Scar too. Some genshin muses are staying.
Iām still deciding on muses. But will definitely add mizi to my roster.
Planning to include muses from Tokyo revengers / jabber from gachiakuta,
Gonna add / replace. Still thinking about it <3 thatās some I hate about running a multi lmao
Hi my beloved pookies, Ive been thinking for a long while and after thinking it through I wanted to make a small post about some changes I may be making around this blog.
Iāve noticed there are a few people who follow me or have been around for a while, but havenāt really interacted with me, replied to things, or reached out much. even when Iāve tried to start conversations or make space for plotting. I completely understand that everyone has their own comfort levels and schedules, and Iām never one to ever want to be pushy and overbearing but Iām also trying to be more mindful of the kind of space Iām curating on this blog. Iāll be honest, my own anxieties and mass insecurities have made it harder for me to write, reach out, and even come online sometimes. Iāve been trying to work through that and not let it stop me from enjoying things here, but it does make me want to be a little more intentional with who I keep around and who I actively write with.
Because of that, I may start softblocking or clearing out followers who havenāt interacted at all, especially if thereās been no effort to respond, plot, or engage after Iāve tried to reach out. This isnāt meant to be personal or harsh. Itās just me trying to keep this space comfortable, active, and less stressful for myself with feeling guilty. My inner People pleaser has me on choke hold. š
Iām also considering making some of my muses single ship going forward, with exceptions for OCs depending on chemistry, dynamics, and discussion. This is mostly because I want to focus on connections that feel developed and comfortable rather than stretching myself too thin.
Thank you to everyone who has been patient with me and continues to write, plot, or even just check in. I appreciate it more than I can properly put into words. I love you gais and wanna keep many of you since I really wanna write with you <3
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Ā i Ā for Ā one Ā , Ā am Ā prone Ā to Ā having Ā a Ā very Ā low Ā social Ā battery. Ā its Ā mostly Ā due Ā to Ā my Ā jobs Ā being Ā straining Ā + Ā the Ā long Ā hours. Ā i Ā will Ā have Ā moments Ā where Ā i Ā reply Ā so Ā fast Ā then Ā there's Ā times Ā I'm Ā basically Ā slow. Ā please Ā don't Ā think Ā I'm Ā not Ā interested Ā anymore. Ā i Ā just Ā get Ā overwhelmed Ā sometimes Ā (ā„ļ¹ā„)
/ ok im doing better mentally - Iām gonna keep positive . && not be so harsh on myself cuz insecurities :( So!!! Consider giving this post a like if you want my blorbos in your inbox (Ė¶Ė įµ Ė˶) .į.į
they will range from memes u reblogged or unprompted ! most likely unprompted - I wanna get my brain worms working - āø(ļ½”Ė įµ Ė )āøā”