Butch in (another) Shell

The sexuality of a police officer is cop.

The gender of a police officer is cop.

When you become the enforcer and protector of capital, you are making the deal to be slightly favored by the system over others like you, in exchange for being its servant. Your solidarity is with the system that you serve, even if it hates you.

... and they are -- she is -- dirty. Her whole body is covered in fluids and soots and oils -- the beautiful viscera of her profession -- and her knuckles are littered with a light dusting of scars from machines and people who struggle with the divide between metal and flesh, but it is because of this, not in spite of it, that my lips long for her fingers.

For hers are the hands of a journeyman mechanic, but a master dyke, strong, calloused, and despite having had them inside me on a semi-regular basis, the only time I've ever felt her nails was when she slipped them into the seams of my armor plating to pry open my frame for maintainance.

She knows me in ways that would make poets seethe, having held me both inside and out, and one of these days I'll find a way to make her understand that I am simply not capable of finding her in a state -- that no such state exists -- where the first thing I think upon booting isn't just how badly I long for her touch.

When you see a woman you love, or a woman you've fucked with some regularity, maybe a friend you've longed over for ages -- or just even one that you saw at the bar and brought home for a rollick -- what living, breathing being struggling on this dying planet, could see herself dripping from the fingers of such a beautiful woman and think:

"No, they're dirty. I simply cannot kiss them."

I may not be flesh, but I will spend as pathetically, desperately little time here -- perhaps longer than her, but -- nothing in the grand schema of the universal matrix, and I will lick, I will suck, I will take into my throat the beauty of this world, and by every rule and every god, I will kiss her fingers clean if I have to,

my new theory: covid had to become 'just a cold' culturally because more research is coming out all the time about how you don't wanna get sick in general, it can absolutely fuck up your life, and people realizing that will inevitably result in people demanding changes to the way things work.

the thing that they don't want you to know is that these acute sicknesses, common viruses and colds, can either cause direct damage or create the circumstances that lead to long term, often complex health problems down the road. by 'they', i mean the people who have a vested interest in putting all our bodies through the meat grinder of late stage capitalism 'business as usual', no matter the circumstances.

i don't have a lot of spoons to write about this today and i'm brain foggy so i'm not gonna be the most eloquent but

think about the implications if your boss making you come in sick can lead to your coworker developing parkinsons or ms or heart damage or cancer. if people knew these things, they would absolutely not take the business as usual shit we're doing right now. people would demand paid time off. people would demand universal healthcare. people would demand so much more.

for example, just saw this recently.

but it's also not just this. conditions like MS and parkinsons, even cancers, among others have been linked to viruses, like for one, epstein barr. (epstein barr is mono, by the way).

cancer, y'all. certain viruses, including covid, increase your likelihood of getting cancer.

if we all really understood this, i believe more of us would be masking up. i don't want this for any of us and it's important to know these things.

i don't think that there is necessarily a global conspiracy to keep this from us, obviously donald trump and joe biden have gotten covid a billion times and are suffering because of it, obviously some of it is just plain ignorance but it is true that the powers that be have a vested interest in us not understanding this.

and if you aren't familiar with the long term damage covid causes:

their (live!) young gestate for. wait for it. eight to eighteen (??) YEARS. can have up to 10 at a time. good grief.

longest lifespan of any vertebrate, up to five hundred years

toxic flesh

has giant eyes but is usually blind because of a weird little crustacean that's evolved to live on and eat their eyes. this doesn't seem to bother them much.

lives in deep cold water and has the lowest swim speed and tail-beat frequency for its size across all fish species. just generally lives life in extreme slow motion

largest genome of any shark

eats everything including moose and polar bears