this is my descent into madness

When are things going to get better😔

I'm just not fucking dealing with anything it all I can't handle it A month has gone by and I still fucking see you in my dreams. I still fucking feel like I'm being stabbed in the gut every time I see or think about you Schools wearing me down. I honestly cannot handle it And home seems to be getting just as bad now at times I don't have anywhere to go and I don't fucking know what I'm doing it what I even can do It's getting so bad. I don't want to end up where I was. But I seem to be heading there again anyway It's all getting too much. It's getting the best of me. The bad times are getting more frequent And I'm so scared I don't know I don't know I don't know 😔