a casual affair

GENERAL 

[ TOUCH ]  for sender to trace one of receiver’s scars 

[ TOUCHED ]  for receiver to trace one of sender’s scars

[ DISCOVER ]  for sender to see receiver’s scars for the first time 

[ DISCOVERED ]  for receiver to see sender’s scars for the first time 

[ CARESS ]  for sender to kiss one of receiver’s scars 

[ CARESSED ]  for receiver to kiss one of sender’s scars

[ SHOW ]  for sender to purposefully reveal their scars for receiver to see 

[ SHOWN ]  for receiver to purposefully reveal their scars for sender to see 

SCENARIOS

[ MEND ]  for sender to treat receiver’s wound which leads to them having to remove an article of clothing resulting in revealing scars hidden beneath

[ MENDED ]  for receiver to treat sender’s wound which leads to them having to remove an article of clothing resulting in revealing scars hidden beneath

[ BLUNDER ]  for sender to walk in on receiver in a state of undress thus seeing their scars for the first time

[ BLUNDERED ]  for receiver to walk in on sender in a state of undress thus seeing their scars for the first time 

[ KISS ]  our muses are having sex for the first time which then reveals sender’s scars to receiver 

[ KISSED ]  our muses are having sex for the first time which then reveals receiver’s scars to sender 

[ BATHE ]  our muses take a shower together and sender looks over receiver’s scars 

[ BATHED ]  our muses take a shower together and receiver looks over sender’s scars. 

WORDS

❝  your scars are nothing to be ashamed of.  ❞

❝  why do you hide your scars?  ❞

❝  i see every mark as something to be proud of,  proof of all i survived.  ❞

❝  can i ask what happened here—  how did you get this one?  ❞

❝  sometimes i get these phantom pains i guess you could say.  little aches and i find them oddly comforting.  because my soul still hurts even if my body is healed.  ❞

❝  i wish i could get rid of my scars.  they’re just reminders of everything i want to forget.  ❞

❝  is it alright if i touch this scar?  ❞

❝  it’s okay—  you can touch it if you want.  doesn’t hurt anymore.  ❞

❝  please don’t touch it.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to tell me how you got it.  i just wanted to see.  ❞

❝  looks worse than it was.  ❞

❝  i want to kill every person responsible for leaving you scarred. ❞

❝  i made sure the people who left marks on me wouldn’t get the chance to do it again.  ❞

❝  woah—  what the hell happened there? ❞

❝  you don’t have to hide them around me.  the scars are just part of who you are.  and i like all of what i see.  ❞

❝  i don’t really like letting people see them.  ❞

taylor swift // red (taylor’s version) from the vaults edition rp meme.

edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit!

ronan.

i remember your little laugh.

i love you to the moon and back.

i remember your blue eyes looking into mine.

i can still feel you hold my hand.

you fought it hard like an army guy.

come on, baby, with me, we’re gonna fly away from here.

you were my best four years.

blind hope turned to crying and screaming ‘why?’

no one knows what to say.

it’s about to be halloween.

you could be anything you wanted if you were still here.

i remember the last day.

what if i’m standing in your closet trying to talk to you?

what if i kept the hand-me-downs you won’t grow into?

what if i really thought some miracle would see us through?

what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?

better man.

i know i’m probably better off on my own.

i see the permanent damage you did to me.

i just wish i could forget when it was magic.

i wish it wasn’t 4am.

you know you had to do it.

i know the bravest thing i ever did was run.

sometimes, in the middle of the night, i can feel you again.

i just miss you.

i just wish you were a better man.

i know why we had to say goodbye.

i know i’m probably better of all alone.

it was always on your terms.

i waited on every careless word.

your jealousy, oh, i can hear it now.

talking down to me like i’d always be around.

push my love away like it was some kind of loaded gun.

you never thought i’d run.

i hold onto this pride because these days it’s all i have.

i have to you my best and we both know you can’t say that.

i wonder what we would’ve become.

we might still be in love.

nothing new.

they hunt and slay.

criticize the way you fly.

looks like she’s been through it.

what will become of me?

what will become of me once i’ve lost my novelty?

i’ve had too much to drink tonight.

i know it’s sad, but this is what i think about.

it’s like i can feel time moving.

how can a person know everything at eighteen, but nothing at twenty-two?

will you still want me when i’m nothing new?

how long will it be cute?

you can’t blame it on my youth.

my cheeks are growing tired from turning red and faking smiles.

are we only biding time till i lose your attention?

it’s a fever dream.

babe.

what about your promises?

didn’t wanna be the one that got away?

you broke the sweetest promise.

you broke the sweetest promise that you never should have made.

you call, but i won’t hear it.

how could you do this?

you said 'no one else.’

you really blew this.

we ain’t getting through this one.

this is the last time i’ll ever call you.

it’s strange how your face doesn’t look so innocent.

your secret has its consequences.

that’s on you.

i break down every time you call.

we’re a wreck.

we’re a wreck, you’re the wrecking ball.

her lips on your neck, i can’t unsee.

i can’t love you.

message in a bottle.

i know that you like me, and it’s kinda frightening.

i know that you like me.

i became hypnotized by freckles and bright eyes.

you’re so far away.

i’m reaching for you.

i’m reaching for you, terrified.

you could be the one that i love.

i could be the one that you dream of.

a message in a bottle is all i can do, standing here, hoping it gets to you.

you could be the one that i keep.

i could be the reason you can’t sleep at night.

these days i’m restless.

workdays are endless.

look how you made me.

time moves faster.

i bet you think about me.

i’ll bet you’re just fine.

the girl in your best has a fine pedigree.

i’ll bet your friends tell you she’s better than me.

i tried to fit in with your upper-crust circles.

they let me sit back when we were in love.

they sit around talking about the meaning of life.

we’re done and it’s over.

i bet you couldn’t believe when you realised i’m harder to forget than i was to leave.

i’m harder to forget than i was to leave.

i bet you think about me.

you can’t help who you fall for.

you said we’re too different.

you laughed at my dreams, rolled your eyes at my jokes.

do you have all the space that you need?

i don’t have to be your shrink to know that you’ll never be happy.

the love that you’re looking for is the love that you had.

last time you felt free was when none of that shit mattered.

you were with me.

forever winter.

why fall in love, just so you can watch it go away?

he spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be.

it’s not just a phase i’m in.

my voice comes out begging.

all this time i didn’t know you were breaking down.

i’d fall to pieces on the floor if you weren’t around.

too young to know it gets better.

i’ll be summer sun for you forever.

i’ll be summer sun for you forever, forever winter if you go.

he seems fine most of the time.

his laugh is a symphony.

when the lights go out, it’s hard to breathe.

i pull at every thread trying to solve the puzzles in his head.

live my life scared to death he’ll decide to leave instead.

my voice comes out screaming.

i’d take that bomb in your head and disarm it.

i’d say i love you even at your darkest.

please don’t go.

believe in one thing: i won’t go away.

i don’t go away.

run.

we shouldn’t be in this town.

i’d drive away before i let you go.

give me a reason and don’t say no.

i’ll wait for you.

darling, let’s run, run from it all.

we can go where our eyes can take us.

go where no one else is.

i’ll sing like no one cares.

i could see this view a hundred times.

since i gave it to you, there’s a heart on your sleeve.

there’s been this hole in my heart.

this thing was a shot in the dark.

say you’ll never let 'em tear us apart.

i’ll hold onto you while we run.

the very first night.

i wish i could fly.

i wish i could fly. i’d pick you up and we’d go back in time.

i miss you like it was the very first night.

i don’t seem brokenhearted.

my friends say they know everything i’m going through.

i drive down different roads, but they all lead back to you.

they weren’t riding in the car when we both fell.

they don’t know how much i miss you.

we never saw it coming.

not trying to fall in love, but we did.

we didn’t know we were built to fall apart.

we were built to fall apart.

we broke each other’s hearts.

don’t forget about the night out in LA.

no one knows about the words that we whispered.

take me away.

take me away to you.

do you know how much i miss you?

i wish that we could go back in time.

all too well (10 minute version)

something about it felt like home somehow.

i left my scarf there.

you’ve still got it in your drawer, even now.

your sweet disposition and my wide eyed gaze.

we’re singing in the car, getting lost upstate.

autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place.

i can picture it after all these days.

i know it’s long gone.

the magic’s not here no more.

i might be okay but i’m not fine at all.

i’m not fine at all.

i remember it all too well.

you tell me bout your past, thinking your future was me.

fuck the patriarchy.

we were always skipping town.

any time now, he’s gonna say it’s love.

you never called it what it was.

you never called it what it was till we were dead and gone and buried.

after three months in the grave.

all i felt was shame.

you held my lifeless frame.

i forget about you long enough to forget why i needed to.

coz there were are again in the middle of the night.

nobody had to know.

you kept me like a secret, but i kept you like an oath.

you kept me like a secret.

i kept you like an oath.

we’d swear to remember it all too well.

maybe we got lost in translation.

maybe i asked for too much.

maybe this thing was a masterpiece till you torn it all up.

running scared, i was there.

you call me up again just to break me like a promise.

so casually cruel in the name of being honest.

i’m a crumbled up piece of paper lying here.

they say all’s well that ends well.

but i’m in a new hell every time you double-cross my mind.

i’m in a new hell.

you said if we had been closer in age maybe it would have been fine.

that made me want to die.

the idea you had of me, who was she?

a never needing, ever lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you.

you, that’s what happened.

it’s supposed to be fun, turning twenty-one.

time won’t fly, it’s like i’m paralyzed by it.

i’d like to be my old self again.

i’d like to be my old self again, but i’m still trying to find it.

i walk home alone.

it reminds you of innocence.

you can’t get rid of it.

it was rare, i was there.

i was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes: i’ll get older but your loves stay my age.

i’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight.

did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?

just between us, did the love affair maim you too?

did the love affair maim you too?

i still remember the first fall of snow.