You know there's always tomorrow.

it's been a while

My best friend blocked me on everything today. i don't know if i feel relieved or heartbroken every time i think about it it hurts to breath, i feel like i've been broken up with. i'll never see her again, i'll never hear her goofy laugh... but i'll also never get left out in the cold again... i always got forgotten about and when i desperately need her she ignores me, like i don't even exist, like most people do. when the shoe is on the other food i go to her, i'll leave work early for her, drive when i'm in pain for her. if she wanted me to jump i would say how high because she was my best friend... she was. now i have nothing at all, no more best friend.. no more talking to anyone, no more arguing that i feel anxious and low and need my best friends company no more telling me no i'm not seeing you. i've tried so hard with you. i've tried to keep you interested in being my friend... i'm not good enough. i'm just not.. i don't fit into your busy schedule anymore and it breaks my heart. every time we're suppose to see each other you cancel very last minute, or joke about it to upset me.. my heart hurts every time you do that. my heart nearly broke when ever you tell me "oh i forgot" the hospital appointments i'm suppose to go to i go in such fear because you "forgot" with no warning for me at all, then i say it's fine and it's not i can't take it anymore! i can't take the little lies that at a later date your parents drop you in . you were my maid of honour and you still almost didn't show .. but i'll miss you. i feel like i'm lost without you but i'm so confused because i need you but i don't need the heart ache anymore. i don't know what to do. i feel so small..

Dylan's amazing new bow tie arrived!! it's amazing he looks so handsome, I just wana smush his little fluffy face 💖😻✨#catsofinstagram ##britishshorthair #moustache #moustachebowtie #bowtie #adorable #kitteh #hehatesme #lovemycat #crazycatlady

started this big blast over today on my bestie @florencejane_ the original was done by me just under 5 years ago. it's nice to see how far I've come into my career and to know I have such trusting people who have stuck by my side through out! thank you flo for helping me progress over the years and to all the other people who have done the same 💖☺️🙏🏻✨ #tattoo #tattooworkers #neotradsub #tattoosnob #ladytattooers #peonytattoo #lotustattoo #coveruptattoo #workinprogress #progress #skinnysink

still one of my favourite designs I made for someone a while ago ✌🏻️✨💖 I'm available next week only one day left and then free the week after! email me for appointments etc ☺️ [email protected] #tattoo #tattooworkers #tattoosnob #neotradsub #prismacolor #stepbrothers #stepbrotherstattoo #dontloseyourdinosaur #dinosaurtattoo #skinnysink #sparrowstattoocompany

another one of my faves from last year! would love to do more different styles gem hearts. email me for availability and prices [email protected] 💖✨☺️ #tattoo #tattooworkers #tattoosnob #neotradsub #heartgem #gemtattoo #filligree #flowertattoo #skinnysink

one I finished earlier this year on the lovely @kittiecatkitten 💖✨☺️🐴👡 would love to do more sleeve projects in the new year ❄️🙏🏻 #tattoo #tattooworkers #neotradsub #tattoosnob #healedtattoo #sleevetattoo #heartgem #gemtattoo #rosetattoo #horseshoe #skinnysink