I ran out of clean underwear and realized it’s been weeks since I did any laundry. I always say I hate underwear, but you never realize how much you need something until you don’t have it anymore 

Today I watched a woman with the same name as me order a hot chocolate instead of coffee and I thought there’s a world in which I always make loving choices for myself

Today it was so windy I had to stand facing a corner to smoke a cigarette which was incredibly unpleasant and sad

today i spoke with a new psychiatrist about my history with bulimia and when i told him i don’t have any dental problems he looked at me like he didn’t believe me! 

Velvet Goldmine 

if he finds out he may not marry you bc who wants to marry debt?

I know that feelings are a gift and I should be grateful for them but right now I am shipwrecked on feelings--my apartment flooded last night which seems like a warning. Now my box spring is damp with what I can only assume is representative of the tears i refuse to cry!

(more from Midnight Cowboy)

This afternoon I watched Midnight Cowboy instead of writing my ayahuasca trip sequence, bc my professor was like, you should. Honestly as soon as Dustin Hoffman started coughing I knew he would die!