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anyway, nova is our main source of income rn, and w/o faer we have no food or groceries, if you could help us out wed love to keep living. even if this is so exhausting:

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And leave out the speculation. If you didn’t see any weapons, the phrase ‘potentially armed’ is not useful. Everyone can guess that agitators might ‘potentially’ be armed. Stick to what you actually saw.

1) the U.S. entertainment industry (especially animation) is run by older conservative types who make up offensive terms and get really mad about them.

2) the people who run Disney would be the first to fall in line with a fascist regime.

3) most of the media we consume is tailor-made and watered-down to appeal to the tastes of older, deeply religious conservative audiences.

And published it in Penthouse, to force those same censors to buy a skin mag. The editor there asked, why Penthouse?

That one is from his autobiography, Becoming Superman. See also:

When he was making Pulp Fiction, he was worried that the MPAA would object to the high level of violence in the film, so he shot a bunch of extra-gory stuff that he didn’t actually want in the film, and added it in before submitting it to the MPAA. Predictibly, they asked him to cut most of it (without even commenting on some of the things that had him worried, like the bits of Marvin’s skull that lodge in Samuel L. Jackson’s hairpiece). The resultant cuts were actually more permissive than he’d expected, so he cut a little more and submitted it, and it got passed with an R.

The second story is about that artist on Morrowind whose name escapes me (I’m not a big ES fan tbh) who figured out that if he made two creature designs, one weird and what he wanted, and one even weirder, he could get Todd Howard to agree to just about anything by showing him the whopper first, then going back and “working” for another few hours on a second, “toned-down” version, and it worked every time.

The reason I bring these up is that the thing that drives censors isn’t some extant physical rubrick of what is and isn’t acceptable, it’s the idea that they can have absolute power over someone else’s creative work. It’s about the social dominance of the interaction.

There is nothing so innocent, so clean, that a censor will not find some fault with it. Because they must find something wrong with it to justify their existence, and because it makes them feel powerful.

Further, some authors may never even find out the lawsuit is happening. The court's suggested notification scheme "would require class claimants to themselves notify other potential rightsholders," groups said, overlooking the fact that it cost Google $34.5 million "to set up a 'Books Rights Registry' to identify owners for payouts under the proposed settlement" in one of the largest cases involving book authors prior to the AI avalanche of lawsuits.

If you're an author, please use this database to see if you could qualify for that sweet GenAI lawsuit money.

I have never ever ever in my life asked someone to blaze my posts.

But if you want to throw me some pennies blaze this. I want ALL OF THE AUTHORS to know that they have the opportunities to get some sweet sweet GenAI lawsuit money.

Like to charge. Reblog to cast that Anthropic will have to pay out the ass.

Then I did think for a second. I realised I had fallen into the classic tumblr trap of believing that Authorship Equals Fantasy Fiction Writer. It’s amazing how that gets into your own head.

I went back and found a clutch of my scientific papers on there.

Authors revealed today that Anthropic agreed to pay $1.5 billion and destroy all copies of the books the AI company pirated to train its artificial intelligence models. In a press release provided to Ars, the authors confirmed that the settlement is "believed to be the largest publicly reported recovery in the history of US copyright litigation." Covering 500,000 works that Anthropic pirated for AI training, if a court approves the settlement, each author will receive $3,000 per work that Anthropic stole. "Depending on the number of claims submitted, the final figure per work could be higher," the press release noted.

No worries, I completely get where you're coming from! I'm just trying to kinda walk a tightrope though because like.

I do think a lot of horror is needlessly ableist and cruel to people that don't look "normal". And that often they perpetuate harmful ideas about disabled people that lead to real life cruelty. And I do think that, more than horror AT disability, horror at society from a disabled perspective is a WAY more interesting, untapped well of ideas. "what if you got fucked up real bad" horror has been done to death. Though there's always room for more. Uh. Death.

And also my disabilities make me who I am. My URL is scoliosiswizard. I wouldn't give up my very weird AuDHD+something unidentified brain for anything because I think I'm fascinating and cool or whatever, but also. My scoliosis scares me. My back hurts by the end of some of my jazz classes just from sitting at the piano bench that long. I intend to be a musician, largely a pianist. I've been told it'll probably mostly only get worse, though I can avoid the pain with PT. How bad will it get? Will I be able to pursue dance as much as I want to? I don't know. That scares me. My ADHD scares me. Will I ever get a sleep schedule that doesn't harm me even if I don't have any timed responsibilities? Will I die young of mold exposure from no cleaning and sleep deprivation and failure to remember to take my meds?

I feel like there is genuine horror in my disability that would still be there if society somehow removed all of the things that can be attributed to the social model of disability. I fully believe that if I couldn't play piano and I couldn't run and climb and dance that I'd still find happiness and passion. Life is long and I am here to enjoy it, even it's rougher bits. It's all experience or whatever. BUT. I want to dance and jump and feel the rhythm in my feet. I want to learn Sean Nos dancing and shuffling specifically. If I can't do that I'll be sad. If I can't do the things I can already do, no matter what, I will have to entirely reconfigure my conception of who I am and what my future is, and that's scary.

So to give context to myself because we’ve never spoken directly before this, hello! My name is Heron, and in 2023 I fractured my spine (L1 to be specific) and it didn’t heal well. I also have; fibromyalgia, multiple traumatic brain injuries, hypermobility (a 6 out of 9 on the scale), severe chronic pain, POTS, AuDHD, C-PTSD, a whole bunch of other mental crap, I wear glasses, and I’m hard of hearing. I have to use mobility aids and go to physical therapy twice a week. I’m also just over 300lbs and 5’9”. I also live in extreme poverty that keeps me from accessing a lot of whatever bullshit disability resources exist in the hellhole that is America lol

I used to do musical theatre, I used to hike, I used to play volleyball. I don’t anymore, for a multitude of reasons, but primarily because of how disabled my body has become. It’s ok to be scared, of your own disability, I know it scares me. I live on a third floor walk up, I was more or less apartment bound for an entire year after I broke my back because I could barely handle the stairs. That level of isolation nearly drove me insane I won’t lie, like it was some of the hardest shit I’ve ever done in my life.

I dreamed of being a Broadway performer, even while I was in art school, that has always been my passion. Realistically now, it’s out of reach, and it’s taken me a long time to come to terms with that. And yeah, that loss is horror for me, I can no longer do what I dreamed of since I was performing my own operas and musicals in my living room 22 years ago as a toddler. It fucking sucks ass.

But I think the key thing here is; the horror is *mine*. Not someone else’s to make media about, if there is gonna be horror around a disability, I think it should be made only by the people with that disability. Not because I’m like “only disabled people should tell disabled stories” (though in horror I do think this rings a little true) but because it’s not as effective to me if it’s just some abled projecting their fear of becoming disabled onto my already lived experience.

The horror of being stuck in a room with a broken back is not some dramatic moment, it’s a slow building, crushing horror that most ableds wouldn’t have the knowledge or patience to properly drag out the way it needs to (and no, being stuck inside during the pandemic doesn’t count). That horror’s true effect can only be felt through the pen of someone’s whose lived it, in my opinion.

I’m not going to tell you not to be afraid of your disabilities and the impact they could have on you, that would be silly. But the opposite of fear is knowledge, so always continue to listen and learn from your own body, and from other disabled bodies you keep community with!

Also final point, and not from a place of judgement; yes, the fear of getting fat and being fat is rooted in fatphobia. And I don’t blame you! Media and society at large does a LOT to push fatness as a moral and social failing, as well as the pinnacle of “poor health”. But in reality; there are so many fat dancers, musicians, hikers, performers, swimmers, athletes, etc. you just don’t see them because that would defeat this narrative that has been pushed about how unhealthy all fat people are. If you’re interested in knowing more about this stuff, looking into fat liberation is a great place to start! Fatphobia is so rooted in misogyny and racism and classism and ableism that unlearning it is helpful when becoming just a better all around human, in my opinion.

!!TRANS IN OREGON PLEASE READ!!!!

I need a place to live, a spare room or a couch, I'll pay rent, I want to rebuild my life, I always lived with roommates. I have one esa animal.

Please consider me, I'm an artist, I have income, and I'll work more, I can pay 800-900 a month

Some of my work. im begging for a second chance, i miss being able to draw.

Please share and dm me, I'll vc and video call potential roommate, I| need support from community, im losing hope

I do not do "warm up sketches". I do not "thumbnail". I do not do "art studies". I sit down and raw dog it. And if I hate it....?

LOVED Knights of Guinevere!!