I met your fiancee today. She is so lovely. I can see why you are so enamored with her.

I'm sorry I can't come to the wedding. It's many states away, and traveling is just not in the cards for me right now.

Over the phone today, before we met up, you read me your vows to her. I cried. You said, "Don't cry, or I'll cry," and I said, "I'm not crying!!" But I was crying, and I'm crying now.

Thirteen months ago, you asked me why I wouldn't marry you. We weren't even dating. I knew that we didn't belong together. I still know that. And I know the two of you do. And it's beautiful. But if I'm being honest with myself, the truth is that I wish we did belong together. You were my first love. I'm feeling some new feelings. It's normal to feel a lot of things when your first love is getting married to someone who isn't you. And now that you're getting married, I know you meant it when you said you wanted to marry me. You want a wife. You are a man so full of love, and you want to settle down with someone. And you love me because you know how much I've loved you over the years, and I'm the only girl currently in your life who you've known for half of your life, and I've never given up on you, even when everyone else did. I'm the only one. I always knew I would be. And 15-year-old me would've sold my soul if it were to make you want to marry me. Now, here we are. I said no, and you're marrying someone else. That's life.

Over the phone today, you told me about this beautiful pearl necklace you're going to surprise her with tonight. You said, "I wanted to tell you about it because I thought it would make you happy. Because over the years, I've become such a better person, and you were a big part of that."

I feel so grateful and honored to have been a part of your evolution. You have become a better person. I will always vouch for you, and I will always love you. I loved you almost twelve years ago and saw your potential when nobody else did, and I've watched it grow, and, finally, here it is. It's here.

Thank you for loving me all these years. You know me in a way most people don't. It's a shame we didn't end up together. 15-year-old me is turning in her grave right now. But it's okay. We will always be a part of each other's lives, and that's enough for me.