Oh Love

When it’s getting so bad you start imagining how everyone would react if you do it.

I wish a BPD simulator existed so people could experience how devastating their words and actions can be to someone whose mind is constantly against them. I wish people could understand the weight of abandonment and rejection. I wish there was a social understanding of how debilitating this illness can be. I wish people were more gentle and understanding of how suicidal ideation can creep into someone’s mind so quickly and convince them that there is only one terrible solution. I wish people understood how lonely it is to feel so misunderstood and out of place with everyone in your life. How sick it is to feel like such an unlovable burden all the time. BPD is such a villain and it is so exhausting to live with and I am so tired of it.

Nothing is coincidence. Every soul you meet is written in your destiny to teach you, to heal you, or to love you.

They say "don't cross oceans for people who wouldn't cross a puddle for you", but I say nahhh, do it. Cross those oceans, give people your light. How lucky are we to have hearts that are so full of love to give? Allow others the chance to experience you. It's about what you give, not what you gain in return.

This brain will kill me

“what’s your five year plan” bro i wake up every day confused by the fact that i’m even alive