12:05am 11.06.18
Scrolling through the variety of images and self written posts from when I first joined, was something of a trip down memory lane. It’s incredible to see how much your life has changed, the people are have unfortunately left your life and those who are still at the very heart of your current life. My current life situation is this; I’m 22 (nearly 23) years old. I graduated from Leeds Trinity University with a 2:1 in Primary Education: Later Years. I am in my second year of teaching as a Primary School teacher and love every moment of it (apart from the bad moments - but hey, doesn’t everybody?). I still live at home with my family and hoping to move out within the next year (money permitted). My friendship group was divided massively for a variety of reasons and some reasons I am unsure of myself. I am happy with those who are still here and love that they inspire me everyday. I am also single and have been for nearly a year. This is what brings me to why I felt the need to post today. After nearly five years with committing, loving and holding onto someone else’s heart, the heart broke. Reading back over previous posts when I was dating you does not bring me any sorrow in my life anymore. There was once a time where I felt physically sick with seeing you move on. A natural feeling which is common in any break up. There was once a time in my life where I honestly thought you were the one. A good friend and once colleague told me “You have had him and now he is gone. He was apart of your teenager years. You now have a new chapter to write. You will find someone in your adult years”. It really dawned on me and my put my dating history in perspective. I am yet to find someone who I can see in my ‘adult years’. I did try dating and it wasn’t the most successful. To be honest, he was lovely and was leading a very interesting life, but our paths were in complete opposite directions. Also, online dating isn’t for me at all. Maybe at some point but it’s still a big negative at the moment. I guess through all my waffling, I’m trying to say that I’m happy to see you move on in your life. You have found someone else who you have similar things in common with. You have found someone who suits you much better than I ever did, and for that, I am content with your happiness. You seem to have things finally sorted out for you, after waiting for what seems like forever. This was your break and you got lucky. Double lucky. You got the job and the girl. I want to thank you for making me who I am today. Much stronger than I ever was. Bolder in my decisions and actions. Stronger in the direction I want to lead. Determined in wanting to have what I want. As this long life update post comes to an end, it has really made me take all my adventures and curiosity’s for granted. Every moment has made me into who I am today and something I would never change.
