#sharing his imperfections makes him perfect + brave im hitting my head over and over @naturalpr3y <- and what if I told you that sharing his imperfections is also how ilya learns better ways to make shane squirm better to torment better to hunt, which is the most delicious kind of vulnerability

“You feel it too, don’t you?” Shane is the bravest boy in the world

still thinking about the way ilya teases shane is like. you are a dork (boring). you are not even really who i'm supposed to have a crush on, even my not-completely-gay side is supposed to find you tedious, like have you met svetlana? have you met sasha? i like danger i am a tigershirtwearingtotheclub bad boy (the tiger says im cool dont worry about it) and a sex god and you can't even break a rule about where to smoke a cigarette you are so squeaky clean its hard to even look right at you, and I think I JUST THINK !!!!! that ilya is actually irritated by shane's uncoolness at first (HEAR ME OUT) like ilya is irked by it like shanes good boy ness ruffles ILYAS feathers because it flies in the face of what ilya knows to be true which is that good guys are suckers good guys get taken advantage of your goodness cant save you and if it can then maybe your world is too different from mine because thats not the way the real world works like shane is nothing like what ilya thought he'd fall for and i don't think it was love at first sight i think ilya was being sincere in wanting to roll his eyes and feeling annoyed and legitimately teasing shane because he didn't -AT FIRST- respect him, or at least he wanted to knock him down a peg, and then shane was like, ok so if you knock me down a peg what if I try really hard to earn your respect and THAT is when ilya really noticed shane for the first time because that's what teasing was MADE for like someone who earnestly tries hard and cares about quality is so ripe for teasing and bullying and the thing is ilya is walking a VERY thin line between teasing from a place of his fragile ego and his trauma-tinged-desire and not pushing shane too far but still pushing SOMETHING on shane because shane likes to be pushed (which is insane its insane that ilya found his freaking soulmate of a likes-to-be-pushed-around boy in someone who ilya finds dorky and boring but then the boring becomes so erotic because look at his boy THATS HIS BOY his boring canadian freckled boy he hit the freaking LOTTERY) like every bully-that-secretly-wants-to-be-loved's dream and I think its worth exploring it as that as ilya being a bully sometimes as real meanness spilling out in places that make it messy as shane experiencing bullying but feeling something complicated from it like attention but the wrong kind but the wrong is wrapped up in something good too like theres something sweet and theres something sinister and sometimes its hard to tell which is which

before the tunamelt when shane starts freaking out around ilya + they both struggle to deal with it vs when they r more committed + he freaks out he can let ilya soothe him …… offering him that further submission + trust 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 and getttinv to smell him tgrough his pants as a Way they calm shane down Together using their rolesssss 😍 the dynamic that calms them down during sex calming them down outside of it 😍😍

the moments of shane freaking out before the tunamelt (im thinking the first time they talked about anal sex . even shane in their first hookup) are so interesting because its always shane trying to gain more control of a situation Needlessly. ilya calms him by domming him LOL But shane calming Himself by Submission is so hugeeeee Its a change in the activeness of his submission EXACTLYYYY

shane’s little knowing smile at the poolside post ilya’s hairshake. it says i can see you are peacocking for me and i approve of it.