So its the full moon, I have been loosing it for awhile.
Eating disorder or a food addiction? This part of me has to go. This has to end. Tomorrow is the fullmoon in scorpio. As a scorpio rising I cant hear enough of the universe shouting at me to change. And there was a part of me who is uneducated and addicted to whatever it is feeling good at the moment. But I decide to leave this persona. I am above and beyond.And I will make the decision everyday untill I dont need to anymore!!! Fuck you old programmings. Fuck you matrix, I am strong as hell but I will not mercy you too when the time comes you little fucker.
I am consistent, Even I fail, I get up and try everyday again and again bitch. I transmute all of the shame u put on me and start again and again untill I fucking start to win and even then I will not stop I will come after you, you sickhead. You make me think Im sick and weak.At this point you are giving me all the power. I am going to be the best of me and I will help others to do the same. Even tho its hard, I make the better decision. I consistently choose the hardest just to beat your ass up. Me coming after your ass is giving me enormous amont of motivation. Whenever I have chance I am coming after you. Your patriarchy Im coming after you. Your limiting beliefs Im coming after you. Showing people who they are at every chance I have is my ultimate mission
āSuper interesting thing happened;
I was writing this at the park, some guy show up, I smelled his alcoholic breath but still, I said Im not going to be judgemental. He said what am I doing and where Im living and he said he is a teacher, Im assuming he said that because he thaught Im a student because there was a library at the park and a lot of young girls. So I keep showing respect even tho the situation was super clear, and his intentions also but still we chat a little, I really thaught I can help him out about his alcohol use because he was pretty old. But he was deaf for the truth and insanely annoying. So I mirrored him and asked a few questions āI thaught he would get some realizationsā He actually did. He said you are so radical, you only bring me evil and ran away. Literally LOL.
It is tomorrow, Im on my way to my interview. I have been binge purging for days. And the weird thing about it, it goes with a blink and this aint never good. Stay focused. Dont let them get in.
Today is the fullmoon. I got triggered as fuck. But I understand my mission even more as I keep getting triggered and realize this bullshit. I will come after you. And as I say that, the power it gives me. Change because this bullshit is annoying. Im changing, Im a moment in the matrix. And this is the new chapter. Bring ur trigger to the table. We are killing ed. We are killing patriarchy. We are š
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