Cuckquean in Waiting

Hello! Thank you for your questions 😊

1. They do know about me & I know about each of them - but they don’t know about each other. I mean, they know it isn’t just me and them - but they don’t know names. He occasionally brings two others together for a threesome, so they meet that way from time to time.

2. I think each Other importance to him varies person by person. He thinks of them as “friends” which I think is silly. I think he thinks he loves some of them, but we don’t talk about that much. I find it difficult to believe you can love someone you only see naked for two hours twice a month or less. I handle it by trying to control my jealousy, by telling him when I’m upset, and by trying to remember that him wanting to bang them doesn’t mean he doesn’t love me.

I am asked a lot of questions, so here is a refresher for anyone who may be interested in how we live:

1. He fucks who he wants, when he wants. I don’t have much of a say in that, nor do I want one. Part of what turns me on is that I do not have a say in his women. He does all the work in finding (almost always online) & maintaining the relationships with other women. All that being said, he typically only fucks during the work day when he has a few hours alone at home.

2. We do have three & foursomes, but I am not really bisexual, so I kiss and touch and play - and they go down on me - but I really prefer to just watch him being served and worshipped. Oh and he ALWAYS finishes with me.

3. No other man touches me. Ever. If we do have threesomes, the women don’t ever make me come. Only he does.

4. He doesn’t go on dates with anyone, he doesn’t have sleepovers, and we keep friends and loved ones out of our bedroom and in the dark about our freakiness.

5. An unspoken rule I have learned is that I am to dress and behave conservatively. As you can tell from my profile pic of me in a vneck sweater, conservative comes natural, so it isn’t too much trouble, but he gets uncomfortable with me showing too much skin or by being too loud or flirty. I know what is expected of me.

6. We don’t do humiliation. If we did, it wouldn’t be humiliation to me, it would be to the others and it would be subtle.

Weeks ago, I stumbled upon a term while watching porn. Cuckquean. Interesting. I did some research, watched a few more videos and instantly knew that this resonated with me on a deep level. Never have I gotten so turned on by something I’ve fantasized about. Never have I wanted, with such intensity, to make a fantasy into a reality. So, for the last few weeks, this has been my go-to search term when I’m getting frisky with myself. 

Like with everything, what cuckqueaning means to me is a little different than what it may mean to someone else. For me, I don’t want to watch my husband fuck someone else as much as I want to HEAR him fuck someone else. The moans, the squeaking mattress, the random bangs against the wall. HOT! HOT! HOT! Last week, his girlfriend came to stay with us for a few days. As I was trying to sleep in the next room, I thought that I heard them getting busy in the next room (which they don’t really do when I’m home). I was instantly wet. I cracked my door in hopes of hearing more clearly, but that didn’t work. I also put my ear to the wall that I share with their headboard. Still nothing. :( Oh well. I crawled back into bed and pulled out my phone and vibrator. Thinking about them in the next room made me cum so hard that I texted my husband and told him about it. I told him how I tried to listen and how powerful my orgasm was. 

The next morning I awoke just as horny as I had been the previous night. I sleepily reached for my vibrator and began to slowly tease myself. a few moments later he came into my room and pounced me. Unfortunately for me, he didn’t read my text until after they had quietly had their morning session. I was promised more of a show the next time she stays the night.