𖦹 𝐛𝐫𝐲 ༄˖°🚒.ೃ࿔

buck hasn’t ever really dealt with anxiety before. with panic attacks. with irrational fear when he should be in a safe space. he’s dealt with tons of trauma. debilitating pain and injuries. near death experiences. emotionally neglectful parents. feeling unloved. unwanted. like he has to give everything, his body, his life, to anyone who will take it to feel some inkling of that loved returned. but he hasn’t really dealt with the emotional off-balance of a fear response to the ordinary. of not being in touch with his own emotions in his own body. maybe even that he doesn’t want to admit that this event has this power over him. that it could take something away from him he took for granted before. feeling safe in his mind and in his body. not being able to be the fun loving buck to the people in his life who look to him for that would hit him hard. would cause him to try and put up the front of it and not tell anyone he’s falling apart. now that he has people who rely on him and need him he’ll do anything to prevent losing that. doesn’t want anything to compromise them feeling like they can rely on him. that he doesn’t want to make it their problem because it’s a by-product of a problem of a problem that he doesn’t even have the words for when he’s experiencing it, doesn’t want to be experiencing it, so it’s better to try and get over it himself before it affects anyone else

Eddie despises the man, even though he looks so normal and is always pleasant with them all. Eddie just knows something isn’t right.

Eddie starts shit with the man to get his true colors out and lo and behold the man starts talking shit about Buck, calling him names and telling him he’s pathetic while Buck just stands there listening, looking frightened to death.

Eddie loses his shit and finally gets to put his mma training from the fight club to use and doesn’t hold back.

Losing Chris, “losing” Tommy, losing Eddie, then losing Bobby. And all the micro-traumas experienced in between all of those bigger moments—like the Billy Boils thing, or Maddie being kidnapped by a serial killer.

We think we see the peak of all this just after Bobby’s funeral, in the Kitchen Fight Scene™️, but we didn’t. It’s still festering, unspoken, this wound of unhandled grief. It’s maybe scabbed over a bit, but the thing with Bonnie tears that scab right off, and now we’re faced with the mess that was hiding underneath.

We all knew Buck wasn’t okay. But the fact that he’s so damn close to repeating Bobby’s mistakes is killing me. It would break Bobby’s heart, too. Frankly, this would be a perfect segue to the fan-favorite theory that Bobby’s alive in a secret government lab somewhere, and he escapes just in time to save Buck from himself.

It is usually

Physically

Between them.

Kinda like the way the first 3rd of the season always had someone in the middle.

But during 914, there's nothing between them at any point.

Like, when you compare the shots in 905 and 913, it is clear that they are trying to not let any obstacles between them, like the door or the pillar.

This guy,

Gives in after a millisecond and cant say no

Drives him around all the time

All up for bucks dramatic ass (kill me with this fork)

Is all sunshine and rainbows until someone touches his man (the shove)

Does not let go of the hate speech & protects

Response time is 0.0001 second

Would definitely KILL for him (it's canon idc)

Does not stop looking for him even bruised&broken

RUNS to him and tells the cops to arrest him later bc he has to check his man