hey man, im sorry about yesterday. Im not gonna do any of that shit again I promise
sen sets down some cookies he made as an apology
(mod//head canon that sen bakes :3)
You're fine, it's whatever
Though he shrugs it off, he's refusing to meet Kaibara's eyes. His gaze instead falls on the cookies, and he picks one up. Usually, he'd jump at the chance to have some of Kaibara's baking, but unfortunately, he didn't have much of an appetite at that moment. Reluctantly, he sets it down and huffs.
It's not that I don't like—... that I'm not fond of the guy, or whatever. Awase corrects himself. Even though it's abundantly obvious by now, outright saying it still feels like a daunting task. He's a good dude. But man, I don't know the first thing about this romance shit.
I've been out with exactly One person before and she was the fucking worst. Never wanted to be with her in the first place! But we grew up around each other 'cause our folks were close, and she always liked me, so I guess our parents had it in their heads that we were gonna be a thing someday... It was mostly our moms, actually. My dad at least never cared about that stuff.
But yeah, our moms forced us to hang out all the damn time, and I got told off if I tried to avoid her because we were "friends" and that's not how you treat a lady, blah blah. Like, no? You might want us to be, but I do not care about this lady! I am my own person, I got my own feelings and wants!! ...But they only cared about hers, and their vision for me. Not. Me.
Thank god, our moms kinda grew apart near the tail end of junior high, so things fizzled out, I haven't talked to her in a hot minute, and I'm chilling now. But, yeah, dating and the like's been a bit soured for me. And I know Tsub's not that kinda guy, but I don't want to be in that spot again. I don't like the idea of someone having that sorta power over me. Plus, I'd probably be a shit partner.
... Yeah, I like Tsub a ton. Which is why I don't wanna fuck things up and lose him completely by getting into a relationship that can only end poorly.