Badr Ahmed

 -pain of depression

so when am gonna to pickup a choice like  Suicide or what ever have the same damage i would be ready 

am believing in you every single day you are my most successful creation 

don’t let the life smashes you as it did with me 

i wa weak & not ready and already realized this too late 

escape for new world new life , you mind gonna guide you 

always think that you are responsible for lives , your minds and imagination is a gift 

but i loved them more then can love him self , they were brothers my entire company’s life 

thank you for every thing good & bad you did to me 

i would always be thankful  for our creator just cause of everyone of you 

trying my best for those who don’t deserve 

i developed a new IA to help me with ths info , analysis all this in damn 6 months of hard working near to my traditional work 

and what all after this is called for military service for a country i hate 

guess what i was’t happy i wasn’t shocked it was traditional to pass this hell of combined 5 years 

i was chosen to represent my school specially and the nation for some conference related to the nuclear chemistry and how to use it , i was invited to this to give them a feedback of an idea relating to the " Radiation analysis of uranium “  the 1st edition of it’s kind to people like us 

but they failed me , friends making me a foul to them no one  believed in me or that i can make a change , that some responsibilities i had to carry over